Emdr

[crazyhorse69]

If I can afford it someday, I'd like to start the therapy, old repressed memories are there, but more so the repressed emotions, I certainly became detached from my early childhood emotions of certain traumatic episodes, as a result I don't believe I ever sincerely developed and grow in a healthy path emotionally, being shunned for even having emotions, and having care keepers disregard my emotions as a kid

 

[Deleted member 33052]

I started EMDR a few months ago. I have to say, firstly, that I already had a good working relationship with my therapist, and he is highly trained in EMDR ttherapy. For me, it's been quite effective at digging out repressed memories. When working through the associated emotions, it's brutal, but he asks me frequently if I need a break and he reminds me that I have a safe place if I need it.

I have noticed that for the traumatic incidents we have worked through, when rethinking those incidents afterward, the pain has lessened, often significantly. The downside - for every trauma we work on, we find another dozen lurking down there. :(

I hope this helps...

 

[crazyhorse69]

thank you for responding and your support

 

[MIZZKK]

Has anyone tried this type of therapy? If so have you experienced any relief or improvement?

Thank...

I just did my first session Thursday. While I am a Life Coach and Hypnotherapist I had already done some of the work but I still had issues of feeling like a victim that I just couldn't let go of. I will say the therapist in my office has already been doing EMDR for years and had just done extensive training for PTSD. I used the alternating hand buzzing thing (lol whatever it's called) instead of the eye movement.
All I can say is I feel different. How to define different? The way I feel is totally blank like a clean slate. I was tired and kind of loopy feeling Thursday over the weekend I noticed I wasn't doing my typical negative self talk, the news didn't really get me riled up like it had previously. It was almost creepy a sense of calm. Which led me to write a piece for a support group I am part of that deals with narcissistic partners. I titled it Who am I after EMDR? That's exactly how I felt. Who am I without my past, my story and the emotions tied to it?
In my session we went back to per-conception seeing both parents healed and having their emotional needs met. It's funny the memories that came up most for me were of family vacations where my mother was a complete miserable miser. I saw her having a great time enjoying the vacations, interacting with us instead of being critical, judge mental and cold. I noticed most of my feelings were in my body and I envisioned moving them out of my body. One example was Boundaries --my body immediately constricted like a band around my chest and I felt like my head was going to explode. I moved the exploding feeling out the top of my head and expanded the band around my chest to about 2 feet out so that I no longer physically felt it.
So as for being in a relationship I can't say I think it will be exciting to date again without all the past triggers I had. Like I said who am I now? I am excited to find out.
But as of now it's just totally different, in a sense numb.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Mizzkk, that's wonderful! Thank you for sharing your experience. My memories seem to be physical, as well. I can feel my heart begin to beat faster and my throat close up.

Just this morning, my therapist and I were talking about how exciting it will be to find out who I really am! :)


And welcome to the forum! It's a wonderful place to be!

 

[MIZZKK]

Mizzkk, that's wonderful! Thank you for sharing your experience. My memories seem to be physical, a...

Thanks for the welcome. I hope you do well. I did read it helps physical symptoms as well. Please let us know.