Emotional Pain Is Intolerable

[Uhuv]

My emotional pain tonight is agonizing. I don't know what to do, nor where to turn. There is no help available, nor can I pretend that there is.

I was organizing and correcting other people's errors, at mine and others expense, today and while doing so I came across and was painfully reminded of medical misunderstandings and errors for which I cannot ever correct.

Now these painful reminders are strong emotions, so intolerable that I just cannot stand all this emotional pain from far too many misunderstandings, error, deception, indifference and delusions. Most of which has so successfully removed me from lives and opportunities.

Can there ever be some possibility of me and while beneath such enormous simultaneous jobs to juggle and successfully reclaim and openly regain enough where-with-all and my voice, to hope to correct numerous mistakes, wrongs and deceptions.

Was me surviving to this point for no other reason than an experience of immensely deep hurt and solely for the purpose of an object for others use and others scapegoating privileges?

This doesn't need to be a thread for me. It's a thread for you too.

 

[Dogehih]

In awe. Awesome.

 

[Aluvi]

Yet, in fact we go on tolerating it. We carry on living under the burden. Does that mean we are telling ourselves a lie when we say it is intolerable?
That isn't a criticism of you, it is a question I've been asking myself. Is it actually the case that we are over valuing our own pain?

 

[Oju]

When we share our pain, that is the literal definition of compassion. It's the only way sometimes to make it tolerable.

 

[Ogi]

"There is no hope available nor can I pretend there is"
I like this. You are honest and brave.
I hope you're not right about surviving to be a scapegoat, but I wonder the same.
It's hard feeling so much pain and knowing there is no comfort to seek from others becUse the story is too hard to explain or understand.
Even for me!
I wish you peace....