What to do if you're in so much physical & emotional pain but you don't trust mental health hospitals?

[Warrior Sunflower]

And normal therapy just increases the emotional pain instead of actually helping. No doctor can figure out what the certain pains are despite me describing it to them repeatedly & drawing every single version of them. Plus,I'm not sure which is worse but I have to mask all the time with Neurotypicals for awhile I was able to unmask with my parents but then at some point out of nowhere they want to "Neurotypicalize" me and not all autistics are safe/good people to unmask around but if I start retreating completely into my room,I'll get depressed & lonely but what's even the point of the first one? I'll just lose myself. Is it really even possible for an autistic,fibromyalgia and a 18- p delention person to be happy on earth? I'm not suicidal, I just kinda wish I had more answers or didn't live on earth. Also, p.s. the 18- p delention syndrome is a very rare genetic disorder & most with my exact one do not survive the whole day after their birth. I was not supposed to live after that day according to the doctors but I'm still here.

 

[whiteraven]

I'm also at that place where nothing helps and instead causes more distress (also have fibro). I've been living like this a long time, and am gradually settling into a place of acceptance. At least cognitively. I'm always in physical and emotional pain, and I wish I had an answer for both of us.

I'm not suicidal, I just kinda wish I had more answers or didn't live on earth.

Oh yeah. I hear you! I'm sorry you are feeling the same. The only thing that has helped me manage day-to-day is finding that thing that lifts me up (cats and the birds at my feeders, and any animal in nature) and trying to build my days around that. It's super hard--we all have lots of other responsibilities--but it helps a little.