My brother, friend and therapist who are my core support system are all out of town this week. So it’s been interesting. I feel ok but I also feel myself closing off from them which I have a habit of doing and I hate.
I have 2 semi stressful doctor appts this week bc I’ve had undiagnosed side pain for awhile and I have to do a pulmonary function test bc my lungs showed something weird. I’ve been trying to keep busy and not think about things but I also feel myself sliding back into how I felt before when I was alone. Usually I’m fine w my therapist going out of town and what not, this time I had really bad anxiety she wasn’t coming back. I don’t know. I don’t want to self sabotage.
I have 2 semi stressful doctor appts this week bc I’ve had undiagnosed side pain for awhile and I have to do a pulmonary function test bc my lungs showed something weird. I’ve been trying to keep busy and not think about things but I also feel myself sliding back into how I felt before when I was alone. Usually I’m fine w my therapist going out of town and what not, this time I had really bad anxiety she wasn’t coming back. I don’t know. I don’t want to self sabotage.