Excruciatingly Hard Session With My Therapist Today

[Heather]

My thoughts? You are a very fortunate person. You have a T who sincerely has your best interests at heart .

You are right ronin I am fortunate 'cause he really is a good guy and I'm lucky to have him.

I need to remind myself of that more often especially the next time I have the urge to tell him where to stick it:D:p.

 

[Zemi]

(((((((((Heather)))))))))))))))))))))))))) i read what you put there ..................... now that you've put it down .................. do you think you can share it with your therapist; and ................... do you know what is keeping you/kept you from sharing this the other week?

 

[Heather]

(((((((((Heather)))))))))))))))))))))))))) i read what you put there ..................... now that you've put it down .................. do you think you can share it with your therapist; and ................... do you know what is keeping you/kept you from sharing this the other week?

I CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!! I probably could write it down and give it to him but I'm not ready to discuss it. No!!!!!!!!! Scratch that I'm not ready for that either:cry::cry::cry:.

I didn't deserve what happened to me back then!!!! I did NOTHING to those people it was mean and cruel what they did to me!!!!!!!

 

[Ron]

I CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!! I probably could write it down and give it to him but I'm not ready to discuss it. No!!!!!!!!! Scratch that I'm not ready for that either:cry::cry::cry:.

Do it when you feel the time is right but the main thing is to do it ! Be strong !

 

[Heather]

Do it when you feel the time is right but the main thing is to do it ! Be strong !

I guess I'm stronger than I think I am 'cause I just wrote about one in that thread in Chit Chat

 

[Lionheart]

I didn't deserve what happened to me back then!!!! I did NOTHING to those people it was mean and cruel what they did to me!!!!!!!

(((((((Heather))))))))

 

[Zemi]

I CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!! I probably could write it down and give it to him but I'm not ready to discuss it. No!!!!!!!!! Scratch that I'm not ready for that either:cry::cry::cry:.

I didn't deserve what happened to me back then!!!! I did NOTHING to those people it was mean and cruel what they did to me!!!!!!!

(((((((((Heather))))))))))) it was definitely mean, cruel and totally undeserved :(

 

[Deaf Global Nomad]

Could you draw a picture? Or could you write something basic about how you are feeling and why you are struggling to tell him? In my experience, the symptoms are as important as the "what" happened.

 

[Heather]

do you know what is keeping you/kept you from sharing this the other week?

It's sooo humiliating and on here it's easier and anonymous. There's no one sitting across from me 3 feet away which makes it a whole lot easier. I just can't bear the thought of it, telling him that is.

Not that he'd judge me -- he never has. I know the reluctance is coming from me but the depth of it I'm not sure where those feelings are coming from.