Extreme Bad Reaction To Term "integration"

[becvan]

Yeah I have the puter, my mp3 player, god only knows how many cd devices, a couple of mini-recorders... um probably a few more... I'm thinking probably a cd because it's multi-purpose and my son usually takes over the computer. I've barely had any time on it all weekend! I bet even the PS3 has something on it! ROFL.. hell I could put it on my answering machine and call myself.. This is Bec, we are integrating our phone services with recording devices... if you wish to be integrated please leave your name and number and we will integrate a return phone call into our busy schedule! ROFL

bec

 

[becvan]

BAHAHAHAHAHA.. okay my answering machine says: You have reached Bec and Matt, we are integrating our phone services with recording devices. If you wish to be integrated please leave your name and number and we will integrate a return phone call into our busy schedule. Thank you and have a nice day.

PERFECT.

The phone is always with me! All I have to do is hit one little button and it plays the message.. and bonus! if someone calls and I can't get to the phone fast enough it will play that out loud! So I will get suprise exposure on top of it.. Damn I'm brillant!

bec

 

[anthony]

Nice bec... very nice.

 

[Abstract]

Becvan,
I am glad you are intergrating intergrate so successfully into your life!
So it seems the DID aspect of things is irrelevant and that is good for you to know.
Don't want to debate DID here as it is not the point of the thread but am very suprised to hear they are considering classifying all with dissociation as DID! People with DID have just had memory and aspects of their personality dissociated in the same way as someone else may have pain or a sense of self dissociated. They are obviously very very different with very diffent triggers. I am not DID by the way! ;-)

Does anything come into your mind at all when you hear the word, "intergrate"? Any smells sounds or anything else?

 

[anthony]

Theory bec... does this have to do with your disaster that was EMDR? Integration is the term used by EMDR physicians for integrating the dissociative memories together!

Maybe that it???

 

[Brontie]

DID and MPD aside, I do believe some part of you remembers those things you have no memory of. And it might be this part of you that is reacting to the word integration. Bear with me. This part of you may have come across the word before and misunderstood it’s meaning. You being unaware of this would not know to research the word for it’s correct meaning. I admit it doesn’t sound like a very nice word and I doubt that it is even possible to integrate all the parts of our personality - we are what we are; the sad person, the happy person, the angry person.

I know you might find it difficult but it might also help you to try to find out what is meant by integration.

 

[Brontie]

I have to agree with Bec... DID is nonsense these days. When it was MPD, it was rarely given... a name change, now it is handed out like candy to most who have complex trauma and dissociate a lot due to lack of experience in diagnostic application / greed! Call it MPD again... then sit back and watch the reversal of it.

Anthony,

Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD) and Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) are not the same thing. MPD was reclassified as DID because research proved the condition had more to do with one fractured personality than it had to do with multiple personalities. I agree with you that MPD is nonsense but DID is a different kettle of fish altogether. People with a Dissociative disorder don't break off into separate people in one body. What they do is distance themselves from certain emotions caused by certain events that they find too difficult to understand or deal with.

 

[becvan]

Theory bec... does this have to do with your disaster that was EMDR? Integration is the term used by EMDR physicians for integrating the dissociative memories together!

Maybe that it???

Damn you know I never thought of that! It very well could be. I don't remember if she used that term or not, but she most likely did. And I'm still struggling with the damage from it, although it has greatly lessened over time. I don't recall having any issues with the word in College when we went over the various methods for MPD. LOL I still shudder whenever there is an EMDR discussion. That makes a lot of sense because I just have a sense of fear when it comes to EMDR; my rage is missing.

Thanks abstract. :) No there is no other senses getting invloved just my my feelings.

I do already know what the term integrate means.

Please take the DID/MPD discussion elsewhere. We covered it in this thread already in reference to my issues and it no longer pertains. If further debate is warranted, I would appreciate a new thread being started.

Answering machine is going well. It makes me giggle. So definate improvement there. I'm also having an easier time reading the word, although I find myself with eyes glazing over every once in awhile. So some improvment but I still have work to do. :)

bec

 

[Abstract]

Giggling is great!! :)
It's fab to integrate giggling into ones life!

I shan't get you to repeat what happened to you in EMDR as this thread is not about that but am sorry to hear something bad happened.
I am about to have it for the first time so hope I don't have your experience! :)
Could be she used integrate and it retraumatised something that was there already. ?
Do you have any idea of when these feelings about "intergrate" started?

 

[Ms. Muffet]

When I read this term, anywhere, or hear it I can literally feel myself start to grind my teeth. It's like someone hit the "high annoyance" switch and sometimes it's even unreasonable anger. I don't post in any thread that has that word in it ANYWHERE. I'm scared I'm going to go off half cocked to be honest. I have been on the forum for a long long while and I have always had this reaction. This even includes references to healing your inner child. Integration of feelings, personalities, memories, your inner child; you name it, it sets me off.

Bec-- I totally relate, down to the teeth grinding response. I've had dissociative issues since childhood--long before I ever heard the labels and terminology used to describe such. I lived so many years with "the way I was" that by the time I began to seek therapeutic help, I'd already come to terms with my own perceptions and ways to describe them. These current labels and lingo irritate me. "Inner child" infuriates me in particular.

I was interested in the possible connection Anthony mentioned with the "integration" trigger to your EMDR disaster which was referred to . . . I had an EMDR experience focusing on childhood trauma which went grossly awry and did severe and lasting damage. I've read through scads of posts on this forum about EMDR, have you posted about your experience and perhaps I've missed it, or would you be willing to share of it? If not, I completely understand. Sorry to stray a bit off topic here.

 

[Ms. Muffet]

Bec-- Just read your most recent response after I posted the above. Nevermind the EMDR, I understand your hesitance to speak of it. Shuddering at the thought, I understand.

 

[anthony]

Bec-- Just read your most recent response after I posted the above. Nevermind the EMDR, I understand your hesitance to speak of it. Shuddering at the thought, I understand.

I don't believe she has an issue with the EMDR issue, as she has discussed it here in public before, and I will leave it to bec to highlight for you... she was more referencing the end of the DID / MPD discussion above, as it is not relevant to her diagnosis nor as the administrator of this site, I do not endorse its discussion here.