Falling Apart

[Anna]

Recently over the past few months I feel like I am going crazy. I find it so hard to keep it together. I noticed other people who are also sufferers around me have noticed it and have started talking to me, sharing their experiences, opening up, which is good as I know I am not alone. I don't know what is going on.

I have started losing weight, I thought at first my pill is not working properly as I take hormanal contraception, but I have been taking it correctly. Also, I have been eating normally and not excercising anymore than usual. My guess is maybe my illness is making me burn calories more than normal?

I just wish this pain in my head would stop. It hurts so much. I feel like I can't keep it together anymore.

 

[Loveneverfails]

It could be a hormonal imbalance or something worse. I just know that when my hyperthyroidism began I became very irritable, noticed I was always frustrated and then was constantly tired to the point of falling asleep without control. I also lost over twenty pounds when I wasn't exercising at all and had no change in diet. So it could definitely be due to hormones. Maybe you should have your doc do a routine blood test to check for any abnormalities? That was what mine did.

 

[Anna]

Sounds like a good idea. I am approaching 35 so could very well be hormones. Maybe I even need to change my contraceptive pill. We sure are a slave to our hormones.

 

[Zef]

I would reinforce what Loveneverfails mentioned about thyroidism. It can mess with your emotions and your body and is often diagnosed as something different. Ask the doc for a thyroid test, if you test potivie, the treatment is pretty cheap and once the dosage is fine-tuned to your body, the difference it makes can be quite noticeable

 

[Loveneverfails]

Yes we are. It's amazing how much of the body they control! But to be fair, it could be anything. Your best bet is to just tell your doctor how you've been feeling lately, explain that it came on suddenly and that it isn't anywhere near what your normal is. If he's good, he'll try to rule out physical before he assumes it's psychological.

 

[Anna]

Today was awful. I cannot stop crying. My eyes look like I have been in a boxing match. It really really hurts.

I did something stupid. I trusted this woman, let her in. I thought she was my friend. Today was the final straw. I am friendly she throws it back in my face. With a stranger it doesn't bother me, but I thought she was a friend. Once again trust betrayed.... It feels like everyone is really sick and evil. You cannot trust people. If you let them in they just hurt you. I really regret letting this woman in.

I broke down at work today, it triggered all those negative emotions. I thought back through everything and it hurts like hell. I proudly managed to drive myself home and get all the housework done. Continuing as normal. The pain is there, but I am fighting it.

I cannot believe I let this woman in to hurt me so much. Trust betrayed again :(