It's fine, you're doing what you can, you're stressed out and you feel like you're at the end of your rope. You don't need people telling you to do things you honestly feel you can't at this time.
What you might want to do, though, is reach out and see if there are support networks for people in situations like yours. Single mothers who are low income and without a home of their own. Find out if there are groups that put together baby care packages for single parents, or something similar, it could cut down on your costs. You have a computer, and while you don't have a lot of time, you don't have to do it all at once.
Just a few minutes here or there, with extra tabs in your browser, take a look around your area for groups that can help you in your living situation. Every little bit counts, and it can add up. Think about subsidized housing (it sounds like you need out of your living situation), retraining programs (many pay you during the training period) for jobs that can fit your needs, infant playdate events in your area, etc etc.
Your doctor may know of some programs that would help-because your current situation is probably awful for your health, as much as you try, and if you have a therapist or know anyone in financial aid, they may be able to help you find additional help that you didn't even know existed.
Just look around, sometimes these things are hard to find unless you already know they're out there. No rush, and you can do it bit by bit.
There is help out there, and there is no shame in accepting it. Especially since your situation is pretty darn awful and you and your baby deserve better.
What you might want to do, though, is reach out and see if there are support networks for people in situations like yours. Single mothers who are low income and without a home of their own. Find out if there are groups that put together baby care packages for single parents, or something similar, it could cut down on your costs. You have a computer, and while you don't have a lot of time, you don't have to do it all at once.
Just a few minutes here or there, with extra tabs in your browser, take a look around your area for groups that can help you in your living situation. Every little bit counts, and it can add up. Think about subsidized housing (it sounds like you need out of your living situation), retraining programs (many pay you during the training period) for jobs that can fit your needs, infant playdate events in your area, etc etc.
Your doctor may know of some programs that would help-because your current situation is probably awful for your health, as much as you try, and if you have a therapist or know anyone in financial aid, they may be able to help you find additional help that you didn't even know existed.
Just look around, sometimes these things are hard to find unless you already know they're out there. No rush, and you can do it bit by bit.
There is help out there, and there is no shame in accepting it. Especially since your situation is pretty darn awful and you and your baby deserve better.
