Sufferer Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas

[TwistedMetal]

Hey Everyone. I am new to this community. I was diagnosed with c-ptsd two years ago and was doing as well as can be expected given my symptoms. I was actually at a place where I was genuinely happy with my life. But, recently I have been sent back into the town where I am the most triggered, my home town. And it seems I have had a relapse in symptoms. Vomiting, sweating, migraines, crying, anxiety, immense fear and insecurity. I am wondering if it is normal to feel like you are right back at square one with your symptoms? I feel abandoned by the people I love most and am having a hard time seeing a light at the end of this long tunnel.

I am starting to feel like I am losing my mind.

 

[WildMermaid]

Hiya @TwistedMetal welcome to the group! May I ask why you moved back to your home town? I have certain towns that I cringe at when we drive through and don't breathe properly until we leave them in the dust. Do you have a therapist? Anyway, glad you've joined us. :hug:

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Hi and welcome.

 

[Nighthawk]

Welcome

 

[Ronin]

Hi and welcome.

You're having a rather expectable reaction to that situation, not losing your mind and your recovery isn't lost for this enforced pause.

 

[Reply]

Hello.
I came out to vegas just to see family and while I was here everything fell apart back home. So I'm stuck until I can get back and it feels like I will lose it before that time comes.

I do not have a therapist at this time.

 

[garden]

Welcome. Sorry that you have been sent into a triggering territory. Glad that you found us, and hope that you can find some comfort here with us.

 

[rdoearth]

Reminds me of how I feel when I go back to the state of Maine to see my father. Hope you can find some relief here.

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the forum!

 

[joeylittle]

Welcome to the forum, @TwistedMetal - I think you'll find many of us struggling with similar issues regarding progress and setbacks. So, if it helps, you are not alone. I'm glad you found us.

 

[TwistedMetal]

Thank you, everyone!
It seems that the relapse in symptoms has come with intense nausea. I have not been able to hold anything down for four days. I cannot seem to even get water into my system.

I guess I never thought the symptoms could possibly get this bad just from a visit. I am overwhelmed, foggy, lost, and can't seem to get it together. I have become an absolute walking nightmare.