Fearful And Fearless

[Unknown Victim]

I'm relatively new to PTSD but I've had it for a long time and I didn't know it. I'm afraid of many things such as hospital where I recently broke my ribs and didn't want to go to the hospital because it's the place that gave me my initial trauma. I'm an old man and I'm still kind of afraid of the dark and so on. But I'm so fearless with many things for instance, I bought a gun 2 years ago and it changed me, I was aggressive and paranoid. I'm so happy I sold my gun, because I started to realize that I'm different. I'm also fearless with my car, plus I drive aggressively and fast, and I don't put my seat belt on. I'm going to ask my therapist about this in my next session, but I'm wondering if there are others that experience this? I don't know if it is fearless or compensation of something I lack.

 

[The Albatross]

I think it wise to ask your therapist next session. The combination of aggressiveness and recklessness that you describe is definitely something to look at/work on before you receive unintended consequences.

I don't have any personal experiences to share... just think that perhaps driving may give you a sense of control... but at risk to yourself or others.