Feeling alone, hospital again

[Talitha]

I am in a very bad spot and I have no one to talk to. I have a therapist but they keep saying the same unhelpful things and I feel like I'm in a f*cked up simulation that's malthfunctioning and on repeat. I have put together an intervention for a friend of mine that will take place on Tuesday. After that intervention happens I know he won't want to talk to me again. If he gets better he mite but the odds aren't looking good. Im worried about him and that but I've also been having an unrelated breakdown all summer. I guess I'm going to hospitalize myself again after the intervention because other than the intervention I feel I have nothing to live for and nothing has been working. My friend the intervention is for and I mite end up in the same hospital. That's gonna be weird.

 

[AJ45]

I am in a very bad spot and I have no one to talk to. I have a therapist but they keep saying the same unhelpful things and I feel like I'm in a f*cked up simulation that's malthfunctioning and on repeat. I have put together an intervention for a friend of mine that will take place on Tuesday. After that intervention happens I know he won't want to talk to me again. If he gets better he mite but the odds aren't looking good. Im worried about him and that but I've also been having an unrelated breakdown all summer. I guess I'm going to hospitalize myself again after the intervention because other than the intervention I feel I have nothing to live for and nothing has been working. My friend the intervention is for and I mite end up in the same hospital. That's gonna be weird.

I'm so sorry. Its funny you say this as I've been Thinking therapist have generic phrases out of books cliches. And it def doesn't help. As for intervention ive never had one so cant speak on it... :/

 

[willhealeventually]

I am in a very bad spot and I have no one to talk to. I have a therapist but they keep saying the same unhelpful things and I feel like I'm in a f*cked up simulation that's malthfunctioning and on repeat. I have put together an intervention for a friend of mine that will take place on Tuesday. After that intervention happens I know he won't want to talk to me again. If he gets better he mite but the odds aren't looking good. Im worried about him and that but I've also been having an unrelated breakdown all summer. I guess I'm going to hospitalize myself again after the intervention because other than the intervention I feel I have nothing to live for and nothing has been working. My friend the intervention is for and I mite end up in the same hospital. That's gonna be weird.

I understand feeling like there is nothing to live for. I’ve battled it all my life. It’s incomprehensible to me how “the other side” lives - people who have no ptsd, no depression, no anxiety. On my best day, I feel that I have hidden these well.
I tell myself that I live for my kids only. But that’s not true. I live in hope that I would be happy, still hopeful. I’m about to plunge into deep depression - it’s been coming on.
My heart goes out to you. I’m sorry you feel that you have nothing to live for. I’m starting to think that this is how depression works - it’s irrational, comes on with no reason.
Do what you feel will help you weather your lowest point. If it’s the hospital, then that’s what it is. I just try to brace myself when it’s coming on and I do know I will feel better than the lowest point when the storm passes through. It’s just the cycles of my life - and many others - over and over.