Hi
I'm here because I have PTSD from an incident onboard a plane I was working on.
I had to deal with a scitzaphrenic who wanted the plane on the ground no matterr what.
He wasn't medicated and wouldn't calm down.
I was hit then we went through severe turbulence being hit by bottles of water and trays and then got hurt when we restrained him and diverted the aircraft.
He thought we were trying to kill him.
He was fighting for his life as I was fighting back for mine.
I had dealt with him alone for an hour, dealing with his horrendous ways and threats.
I felt I was alone with no help and when I struggled the only person to jump in and help was a friend.
Now I struggle with strangers.
I can't handle big groups of people.
People that have the same image as him scare me as I think now people are capable of just turning and are going to hurt me.
For two months I locked myself at home lost my sisters who told me there was nothing wrong with me other than mental issues they believe I had (I haven't ) my children have asthma and a daughter who has an epi pen she's been tested and had severe allergies. They think there's nothing wrong with the kids and it's all in my head ! I didn't diagnose or test them
I did have to fight for my daughter but I now see after the tests thank god I did.
I'm injured so still dealing with that 7 mths later.
I have developed fibromyalgia too diagnosed by a consultant I've seen.
I'm in cbt counselling and have panic attacks most days.
I can't stand any conflict so I run from it. People or children screaming/crying set me off.
I don't sleep as I can't.
I'm on lots of medication for my injuries and now anxiety tablets too.
My parents are embarrassed by me having this and don't believe there's anything wrong. They think I'm acting this way through choice .
I'm not me anymore I'm lost in a nightmare a can't wake up.
I don't like the scared ,nervous, anxious person he's turned me into .
The discovery of how my family look at me makes this so much worse.
My mum told me tonight that she's been through worse in her life ...I know nothing and she got on with it and mine is nothing compared to her life. She said she's disgusted by how I am and what I say .
I have 4 children who are the only people currently keeping me alive.
I've attempted to take an overdose once I also got accused it was for attention and told by my parents how disgusted they were in me.
I have enough guilt I don't need to hear their views.
I was gutted when I woke up ... I hand on heart didn't want to.
My mum has said her piece and ignored my messages pleading for her to understand.
My dad phoned me and wants to come to my counselling if it helps me.
I just don't think I should need to prove this to my family.
My husband collapsed they think he may now have epilepsy after his seizures he has speech problems and is always angry ( my biggest fear ) so my life is hell right now.
I have no where to turn and no support
My best friend lives in Canada.
I've got to the stage that I feel I'm a negative person to have around so have found myself hiding away again and have no one to talk to about how I'm feeling .
I'm in the corner of a very dark lonely place with no one who understands
I've been pushed back into work and have only done two flights I'm triggered constantly.
I've lost my appetite as I'm constantly anxious and on the plane I'm hyper sensitive so my adrenalin is on overdrive.
I went down to 7 stone from 9.5 I'm dropping again.
My family have let me down the most and made me feel like a bad person who is crazy.
From the start there was no support.
What kind of life is this to live
I'm here because I have PTSD from an incident onboard a plane I was working on.
I had to deal with a scitzaphrenic who wanted the plane on the ground no matterr what.
He wasn't medicated and wouldn't calm down.
I was hit then we went through severe turbulence being hit by bottles of water and trays and then got hurt when we restrained him and diverted the aircraft.
He thought we were trying to kill him.
He was fighting for his life as I was fighting back for mine.
I had dealt with him alone for an hour, dealing with his horrendous ways and threats.
I felt I was alone with no help and when I struggled the only person to jump in and help was a friend.
Now I struggle with strangers.
I can't handle big groups of people.
People that have the same image as him scare me as I think now people are capable of just turning and are going to hurt me.
For two months I locked myself at home lost my sisters who told me there was nothing wrong with me other than mental issues they believe I had (I haven't ) my children have asthma and a daughter who has an epi pen she's been tested and had severe allergies. They think there's nothing wrong with the kids and it's all in my head ! I didn't diagnose or test them
I did have to fight for my daughter but I now see after the tests thank god I did.
I'm injured so still dealing with that 7 mths later.
I have developed fibromyalgia too diagnosed by a consultant I've seen.
I'm in cbt counselling and have panic attacks most days.
I can't stand any conflict so I run from it. People or children screaming/crying set me off.
I don't sleep as I can't.
I'm on lots of medication for my injuries and now anxiety tablets too.
My parents are embarrassed by me having this and don't believe there's anything wrong. They think I'm acting this way through choice .
I'm not me anymore I'm lost in a nightmare a can't wake up.
I don't like the scared ,nervous, anxious person he's turned me into .
The discovery of how my family look at me makes this so much worse.
My mum told me tonight that she's been through worse in her life ...I know nothing and she got on with it and mine is nothing compared to her life. She said she's disgusted by how I am and what I say .
I have 4 children who are the only people currently keeping me alive.
I've attempted to take an overdose once I also got accused it was for attention and told by my parents how disgusted they were in me.
I have enough guilt I don't need to hear their views.
I was gutted when I woke up ... I hand on heart didn't want to.
My mum has said her piece and ignored my messages pleading for her to understand.
My dad phoned me and wants to come to my counselling if it helps me.
I just don't think I should need to prove this to my family.
My husband collapsed they think he may now have epilepsy after his seizures he has speech problems and is always angry ( my biggest fear ) so my life is hell right now.
I have no where to turn and no support
My best friend lives in Canada.
I've got to the stage that I feel I'm a negative person to have around so have found myself hiding away again and have no one to talk to about how I'm feeling .
I'm in the corner of a very dark lonely place with no one who understands
I've been pushed back into work and have only done two flights I'm triggered constantly.
I've lost my appetite as I'm constantly anxious and on the plane I'm hyper sensitive so my adrenalin is on overdrive.
I went down to 7 stone from 9.5 I'm dropping again.
My family have let me down the most and made me feel like a bad person who is crazy.
From the start there was no support.
What kind of life is this to live
