Feeling Like Trying.

[macbeth]

i feel really down and really stupid at the same time. This afternoon me and my partner got into a huge argument. my reaction was to make a noose and stick my head in it. I have already called the crisis line for my area but I realise it is not what I really want to do only a reaction to the circumstances. I am feeling broken unable to be repaired. Does anyone else feel broken beyond repair?

 

[Ed Norton]

I do sometimes. when I get those thoughts I think of my grandma and my son. I'm sorry that you are goingthrough ssuch a hard time.

 

[Lolly]

I'm so sorry you're struggling so much right now. If you need a listening ear, feel free to PM me anytime. And yes... I definitely feel broken beyond repair, especially at the moment. I'm having to just having to get myself through the day hour by hour. Trying to remember that I will dig my way out of this hell hole one day.

Again, I'm sorry you're not doing well, but I'm very pleased you didn't hurt yourself and you phoned someone to talk to. It takes a lot to do that.

 

[Tanishq]

Yes, I understand. You are trying to hang in there. I think getting into an arguement has drained you and I think this is why you are feeling down. Sending you a hug. :hug:

 

[macbeth]

I thank you guys for the support. I am not usually like this but my reaction to the argument was extreme and it frightened me. I reached out to support services to make sure I was ok.

 

[macbeth]

Thank you @Ed Norton, @Lolly and Tanishq for the support you have shown

 

[Lolly]

Thank you @Ed Norton, @Lolly and Tanishq for the support you have shown

Anytime MacBeth. I hope you feel better soon. Stay safe :)

 

[Tanishq]

Macbeth, You are welcome anytime. I see you are working on self control. That is hard thing to control. You will get better at this. :)

 

[Sammyiam]

Macbeth,

When I joined this site you were the first person I talked to, you made me feel so welcome that night, when we talked on chat with a few other friends, I have been so pleased I joined this site and can now call you my friend. Please realise Macbeth that you are such an amazing person, friend, mother, and partner, I thank you so much for the talks we have had and the time you have spent helping me, please Macbeth know that you are very highly thought of here and in your life outside this forum. I will be there any time you need to talk.

Please take care

Sammy

 

[macbeth]

Thank you @Sammyiam. This was not a proper attempt rather a reaction to an argument. The reaction alone was what scared me and prompted me to reach out. I ended up having a police escort to my nearest hospital for a psych evaluation and given the all clear.

 

[xena21]

I understand completely. I don't know you, but I have extreme stressors that contribute to make me do things like put ropes around my neck or bags on my head to see if I can last long enough. I understand is what I'm saying. Things are horrifying sometimes and so stressful that most humans wouldn't think they were capable of doing them...yet they are more common than people think. I really hope you do feel more relief.