Feeling Lost?

[SadBunny]

I spend alot of time in my room not much just writing or drawing. Sometimes it bothers my family that I spend so much time alone by myself but I feel like I have to. I don't want to make them deal with what I have to deal with. I know that I'm alone in this but it feels like it. It isn'y very easy opening up to other people. When I was little the only way I survived was by keeping everything to myself, thoughts and feelings. Now I feel like I get lost in my own thoughts.

 

[AmyO]

It's still early for you. How long have you been diagnosed if you don't mind my asking? We all get that feeling of going into the cave. When you are ready you will be able to ask family for help. If they want to learn, they have a section on here that is for carer's of people with Ptsd. It might help for them to better understand. Do you ever talk to them about this or do they know what is going on? I keep to myself a lot as well sometimes. Only difference with me is I have three young boys with Ptsd as well.

What is your favorite media for your expressions? You may feel lost now but it will get easier. BTW, you aren't alone anymore.

 

[SadBunny]

Thank you very much, i've been diagnosed for little over six months now. I haven't been seeing many changes in feeling and stuff. I don't see my self making much progress. But then again i'm not sure when progress should be comming. Since i'm still pretty young living with my parents there is alot of conflict between us. They also get upset that i'm not making alot of progress.

Music and art are my outlets. I love to sing and listen to music. Even though i'm way to shy to ever let someone else hear it music usually calms me down. Thank you for saying that i'm not alone i appreciate it.

 

[AmyO]

Progress comes slowly, sometimes stalls, sometimes even regresses then we move forward again. The thing your parents need to understand is that this can be lifelong. Ptsd doesn't go away overnight. Outside stressors can aggravate it as well. One of my triggers is if someone looks at me a certain way I feel myself shrinking into myself. Or if I hear angry yelling I get self concious like I did something wrong.

If you have a therapist, it might do you best to let them ask your parents for a meeting so that they can explain exactly what you are going through, then they might realize that the conflict doesn't help your progress. I have three boys (8,7,and 6 yrs now) that all are diagnosed Ptsd as well. But I did the research, looked at the articles and found out what I had to do to help them. That is what a parent is, In my opinion.

Let the music flow, little one. Dance around the room if it helps. And let the art tell your story in a roundabout way. It's not just words, sweetie. We are in this together.