Feeling...

[LizaB]

Wow. Just can't seem to get out of this funk today. Had a meeting yesterday with some family- discussing previous incident where I exploded/ got out of control from trauma trigger. It's been a month & a half since. So the dust has settled mostly. But I feel shame & just down on myself. Hard to shake it off. Been doing lots of self-care... meditation, etc. Therapy appointment next week.
Have some creative projects on the go but I'm just feeling what's the point.
Excuse me. this too shall pass, I suppose.

 

[purpleswirled]

Hi LizaB, Thanks for sharing. I relate so much to the feelings and experiences you are describing. I am in a similar funk mysle although my last meltdown was a few days ago now. My thoughts about it are intrusive, obsessive and keep replaying it. The shame is horrible- shame and self loathing seem to be my default settings-but incidences like this definitely intensify the shame a hundredfold. Having to avoid those people now who witnessed me break down like that. :( I wish i had some helpdul advice LizaB, but all I can do is tell you you are not alone.

 

[awayhome06]

I'm sorry you are struggling. It can be so hard when you are trying to heal and be a better version of yourself to have to deal with other people's responses to your symptoms. Just keep in mind that they are probably also trying to move past that incident in their way. As a supporter, I often need to make sure that I understand where my sufferer is emotionally and with personal progression to feel comfortable with him, especially if something he did while in a difficult state affected me. For me at least it is about feeling safe with him, but also feeling understood and valued. Open communication can be hard, but it's so important to keep a relationship working.
I hope that helps.