I have difficulty relating as I have never wanted to harm or kill myself. I did, however, have a horrific reaction to a prescription med. Suicidality is a well-known side effect of ssri's, but I was not informed of this when prescribed. The doc insisted there were NO side effects, yet asked me if I were suicidal when prescribing. (I was not and never had been.) She had me return in 2 weeks for follow up and again asked if I were suicidal. I was not. However, I was experiencing "something invisible" trying to force me to harm myself. I was fighting it very hard and did not understand what was happening. I was getting no benefit from meds and quit. She still did not inform me, did not warn me about tapering off, and immediately put me on another brand of same thing. Still no benefit and I quit. I spoke to someone I knew and that person told me of horrific side effects.
If any of you who are experiencing suicidality are taking any prescription meds, please look them up to check for side effects. Docs lie and claim they are safe, do not fully inform. There has been research showing these meds are no more effective than a placebo. They only "help" because you believe they will help; anything you take with that strong belief will be just as effective.
Because the doc put false info in my med records, my life has been destroyed. My ins went up astronomically. I lost my job and was not allowed to defend myself against med records (there is a sealed exhibit to which I am not allowed access). I have lost 2 homes. Am staying now with friends who are letting me sleep in their living room. I was making good money and had invested for retirement. All was taken from me. Yet, I am still not suicidal or depressed. I do, however, suffer from ptsd. Have finally received an official diagnosis, based on the legal abuse involved in the taking of my homes and loss of my job, and on the car accidents.
That doc should have reported my reaction/side effect. But she wanted to insist I was depressed to cover her behind and protect the drug co. Had I been properly diagnosed with ptsd (I had survived a car accident) my life would not have been destroyed the way it was.
I have sensory issues that have been diagnosed as auditory processing disorder. It is likely from a traumatic brain injury starting with that first car accident, made worse by 2 additional car accidents. But after coming to this site, I am wondering if it is sensory processing disorder from the ptsd from the car accidents and also from the doc and T mistreatment of me. The T was especially traumatizing. I requested my records from her and was denied; she claimed they were lost. I filed a complaint and they did nothing about her "loss" of my records. She is now retired. It is unbelievable what harm they can cause and get away with.
Has anyone read a book called "Confessions of a Medical Heretic"? It is an old book, but very informative. Medical error causes many deaths. Can often be found on list of top ten. But there is so much cover up it is not consistent. There have been instances of places where docs leave. Statistics on death rate actually improve. Then another doc comes to area and statistics go back.
imho docs are just in it for money. same with drug co's. They will say anything to get people on prescription meds. Generally treat side effects as new symptoms of new condition and add more prescriptions. I will not go down that path.
Sorry if this offends anyone here. We all are individuals and have our own experiences and beliefs. I am only stating my experiences and beliefs based on those experiences. I do, however, believe we should be fully informed. As docs seldom fully inform, I now make sure to do my own research on conditions and drugs, etc. I once asked a doc to give me written list of side effects as I had difficulty with information that was by sound (did not know about apd, just knew I had problems with sound and needed in writing). Doc came unglued and accused me of trying to set up for a lawsuit. I was shocked and traumatized by doc's outburst. Giving me info in writing would avoid a lawsuit, be proof of fully informing me. What was going on? After I left and thought about it, it just confirmed my belief that they do NOT fully inform.
Other experiences and viewpoints are respected.
