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[Angrylittlebird]

While my abuse was not directly a parental doing the abuse, my parents made decisions that ultimate...

Thank you for sharing

 

[Angelwings]

Ugh! I am sick and I can't be a parent today. I mean, I have to be a parent but it's really hard, plus I just had a flashback, which makes me feel like crap. My family is just frustrating and my mom is out of town so I don't have to avoid her. I'm worried that my new therapist doesn't like me, even though she's been extremely helpful. I hadn't eaten in 15 days or something and I ate today. I had key lime pie....not the best choice for my stomach but it tasted good, and now my therapist wants me to avoid eating things with milk in it because I have a cold and milk creates mucous. I'd rather just have instant breakfast for dinner. That food is still on my stomach and it doesn't feel good. Anyone else keep themselves from eating from time to time?

 

[mumstheword]

I know an absolutely wonderful mum with DID. Her three sons are all adults, successful, creative authentic and amazing young men.

I have cptsd, myself, I have child parts and mostly don't feel like a grown up, but my children say I'm a good mum. They are all amazing people. My oldest daughter just received "student of the year" at Tafe and another of my son's won an "against all odds" award for achieving through difficulties.

Anyway I guess what I'm trying to say, is that having c-ptsd or DID doesn't preclude you from doing an amazing job as a mum. It's very challenging but definitely achievable

Loving your kid and devoting and committing to the job, cannot be underestimated.

 

[mumstheword]

Ugh! I am sick and I can't be a parent today. I mean, I have to be a parent but it's really hard,...

I used to , for many years, but I eventually realized it made thinking and responding harder and my moods more deregulated and I was sick all the time. Fasting when sick is supposed to be good, when you don't feel like eating, but watch your nutrient levels don't drop too low. I ended up with very dangerously low iron and B12 and the B12 deficiency damaged my brain and I got psychotic until I had shots to remedy it. The iron deficiency just made me tired all the time. Both are bad so I hope you get tested and keep an eye on your blood nutrient levels.
Just saying.
I feel for you, been in that position loads. It's worrying, the not really being up to parenting but having to anyway.
(((Hugs))))) :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug: @Angelwings

 

[Angelwings]

I used to , for many years, but I eventually realized it made thinking and responding harder and my...

Thanks. I have been here before, not being up to parenting but doing it anyway. I love my son, so I'm always there for him but d*mn if I don't have less to give some days. He has so many needs, and he's in a bad mood today, throwing fits over every little thing. I might just hide in the tub.

 

[Angelwings]

I just thought I would write about my recent experiences with PTSD, just to vent...see how it helps to get it out. I started feeling fear on a grand scale about a month ago. Every day would be the same thing. I would wake up just fine, but by 9:30 the fear would return. Well, this Wednesday, the fear turned into terror, absolute and all consuming terror. I haven't felt anything like it since a was a child while being abused, when I actually believed I was dying. I couldn't talk to people or look them in the eye or my fear would go from a 10 on a scale of 1-10 to a 12, an emotion that prevented me from functioning normally. I know that with my son and my current situation, I couldn't go to the hospital, so I arranged for my son to stay at home with my aunt for three days and two nights. The first night was like hell. I had the worst flashbacks, lost time, and came back with my therapist by my side, in the hotel room. She then gave me my meds, and stayed with me until I fell asleep. The next day wasn't much better, I had flashbacks all day. Today everything seemed to calm down and I did have klonopin. I finally got rid of the scared feeling for the most part. It is a 2 on a scale of 1-10 which I'll take any day. The terror thing is gone. Yay! and I was able to pick my son up from school, he was staying with my aunt. He did just fine. Now I just have to hope that this relief lasts a little while. My new therapist has started DBT with me, and the one thing she asked me to try didn't work, I tried it three times. Then I was supposed to do bi-lateral stimulation and think about my fear and yucky feelings being pulled out of my body by Wonder Woman and then put into a safe, then Wonder Woman would hide the safe for me. That worked initially, but my fear level at the time was a 7 and it went to a 4. Now my fear is at a 2. I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOO relieved, I can't even tell you. That was hell.