Finished EMDR/Rewind 3 weeks ago, I still feel awful

[sillygooselay]

Hi, so I started EMDR/Rewind therapy on march 2nd and finished on may 11, but I still feel so awful. I feel I've had a complete OCD relapse and I'm just so overwhelmed by everything. I feel like a shell of my former self, and I just don't see how this is going to end. I broke down completely yesterday and I rang the crisis team and I am lucky that I have a wellbeing appointment on Tuesday, but I'm just so scared for my future. I just don't know why I feel this way. Is it normal? Is it because I did too much too quick, is it both? Am I retraumatised?? It's all too much. It's not easy to get in contact with my therapist as it was through the university and I did one time and he said he can't have a correspondence anymore as our 10 sessions are over. He told me this was normal and to continue using grounding exercises but I'm really really struggling and when I hit rock bottom none of it helps. It's like a vicious cycle. I have these moments where I feel complete terror and it's honestly been one of the hardest times in my life. I hope someone here can give me advice.

 

[Sideways]

he said he can't have a correspondence anymore as our 10 sessions are over

Can he provide you with a referral (or at least a recommendation) for someone that you could see instead?

to continue using grounding exercises

This is solid advice. If you were to see a therapist for instability after a course of EMDR, they’d likely be focusing really heavily on your grounding skills, and getting grounding practices built into your everyday routine. Can you introduce some more grounding into your day to day to get you through to your Tuesday appointment?

 

[sillygooselay]

Can he provide you with a referral (or at least a recommendation) for someone that you could see instead?

I'm sure he could if I try and email him again. Hopefully the wellbeing team will re-refer me. I can also re-refer myself for more therapy in university in about a month, but I'm going to see what wellbeing can offer me first.

As for the grounding, yes, I really hope I can integrate that more