First Therapy: Frustrated And Bipolar?

[Emmie420]

Highly unprofessional IMHO.
I'd completely disregard the bipolar diagnosis as you weren't even...

He perscribed me amblify and escitalopram, I think it could be used to treat PTSD. I'm quite wary about anti-psychotics, I haven't heard great things about the side effects but I guess different meds work for different people. I do have symptoms which could possibly mean bipolar. I can be very impulsive, recently I had a week where I did something stupid and I didn't see any risk at the time. I meet random men off craigslist and had sex with them in a public place. One of them were old enough to be my dad, I really regret it now. I also made the mistake of smoking weed with one of them and had the worst case of paranoia, I felt like the whole thing was a set up to give me HIV, I kept looking for signs of HIV, i thought maybe I could taste it or smell if i caught it. I'm pretty sure that not how it works, It was like I literally lost touch with reality. It scared me. I thought he was going to rape me, when I realised I was making a mistake, I tried to get away from him as quick as I could. He kept messaging me after and he didn't understand what was wrong. I threatened to call the police if he continues messaging me. I tested myself for STI's and I had to tell my boyfriend everything. I don't understand why I do such stupid things sometimes. I don't know if I just do stupid things as part of my personality. I told that therapist about it(I didn't go into this much detail) and that is when he prescribed me with anti-psychotics. I also have homicidal thoughts everyday but he said its normal... Sorry for long reply.

 

[EveHarrington]

I'm not familiar with those symptoms as a part of PTSD but I do know they can be a part of bipolar disorder. (Maybe others can shed light on whether or not those symptoms are seen in PTSD?)

I think it really is important for you to get a second opinion on your diagnosis. I can understand why the doctor gave you a bipolar diagnosis though.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Sometimes being impulsive can stem from trauma. It can be a way to forget or to punish or to escape. Being impulsive and doing dangerous things like you described can be a sign of bi-polar, but there's more to that diagnosis than just that. Definitely still seek a second opinion from someone who will actually listen to you. I think you said you weren't going to, but I definitely wouldn't start the meds until you were working with someone whose opinion you can feel more confident in.

 

[Emmie420]

Sometimes being impulsive can stem from trauma. It can be a way to forget or to punish or...

I spoke to my GP. She said it sounded like a personality disorder, possibly a mix between that and PTSD and depression. She also recommended I take the medication and she refered me to specialist. I trusted her opinion a lot more.

 

[ladee]

Good ! Hope you feel better and her knowing what meds you will be on, so now you can get on with what you need to do.... We are here for you. hugs

 

[Crow]

Haven't read all the responses but just wanted to say my pdoc diagnosed me with bipolar but after she started doing trauma training realized I actually had cptsd. She pulled me off meds and things have gotten so much better instead of forever spiraling downwards.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

She also recommended I take the medication and she refered me to specialist. I trusted her opinion a lot more.

So glad that you have some you could go to for advice on this.