Sufferer First Time Talking

[Istruggledaily]

hi everyone, just want to introduce myself. Last year my husband of 8 years decided to cheat on me. This was okay, as soon as I found out I filed for divorce. He attacked me, set my car on fire while I was in it and physically assaulted me. After I got a restraining order he came back late one night with his girlfriend and I was gone. I pulled into my driveway as they were still there. I called 911 and he ran to my
Car beating on the windows. I was so scared. I tried to get away and he got in her car and chased me, hitting my jeep and running his girlfriends car into our neighbors house. He got out and began hitting my windows trying to break them. I managed to get away and wait for the police, hidden behind a store a few miles away. After the police got there I found out he committed suicide at our house. I receinved death threats from his family who blamed me. They had a private memorial and his girlfriend was invited, not me. I lock my doors several times
A night because I am afraid his brother will find me and kill me. His girlfriend was left homeless when I sold
My house. She moved into his grandmothers house. They have my dogs. I'm just a mess. I have horrible night terrors. I sleep about 2 hours every night. I don't talk about it. I take no mescicarions. I am a nurse and work 60 hours a week. It helps. But at night I get so sad, hurt and scared. A doctor friend who I confided in and talk to tells me he would diagnose me with PTSD. He saw me lose it one day. At Starbucks drive thru a guy behind me recede his engine and honked the horn and began yelling when I didn't move up fast enough and I juts started crying and shaking uncontrollably because all I could picture was him running to my
Car and hitting the windows. Please tell me I'm not alone. That there is help.

 

[Sandstone]

You aren't alone. There are many people here who will listen to you and support you. I'm glad you found us, but so sad you had to go through terribleexperiences

 

[joe222]

As someone who had someone attempt suicide and the family blame me, I can say this 100 percent: You are not at fault. You may know it (or part of you does) but you have to keep that there, because it's part of the reality. None of this was your fault, your husband had clear massive issues and was abusive, even when it wasn't even in his interests to come back and start on you (as he had someone else) he still did. The feelings you are having are normal, and I want to commend you that you were brave enough to seek out help. I admire you for that, and I want to tell you you will be okay eventually. It'll be difficult but you will be alright, first off you have to get on medication (especially if you're working 60 hour weeks...). Second, get therapy. Talk to people, it always helps. Take care of yourself!

 

[GrayOwl]

You describe a terrible experience.
Yes, people like that do exist.
I'm sorry for everybody involved in the whole episode - everyone suffers from this.
That being said, you need to look out for yourself. You are most important in this.
There are healing mechanisms and processes that help. Therapy, and time will help too.
There are people here who can offer great support and suggestions. I hope you'll come back.
You aren't alone. I've had my own trauma, but I can hardly imagine the fear and despair you've been through. It does get better. I believe it does.

 

[EveHarrington]

Thank you for sharing your story with us. Here you are not alone. :hug: Welcome.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

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