((Rebecca))
Wow, you gave a lot to so many people in crisis and saved lives too! It is such an honor to meet you.:D
My Mom and Dad both worked at ER and in intensive care. Dad was a medic in the war. Our family pilot friend did medvac and rescue. I have a friend that works in the cancer ward and know a few Drs. So I can only offer what I saw happen with them.
All at some point (of those mentioned in my circle), suffered reoccurring nightmares and Flash Backs. Some sought a good therapist to find out what was connect to the triggers and they stated it helped. Some of those folks mentioned did not seek assistance due to their standing or reputation among their peers.
Watching life and death scenarios is about as real as it gets and they couldn't allow for the processing of their emotions fully at that time. They had a job to do (as you did), always short staffed, things going wrong, drama, trauma and sleep deprivation. Adrenaline ran high. And as you sadly know, not every patient could be saved. Watching that happen and the grief of those patients families tore their hearts apart over time.
I do not know if my offer has any value to you concerning your question, but I do want to state, you paid a big price to help others. Thank you for being you. Your heart, soul, body and mind had to be top notch, engaged and certain sounds meant getting your game on. Triggers.
In my humble opinion, my extended family that went to therapy healed faster than those tough(?) members, who continued to stuffed it down and just medicated or self-medicated. No reference or comment towards anything outside of this situation. This is just what I observed in this group within my medical family.
Take what you need and leave the rest.:hug: Hope it helps a little.
