Thank you @Lionheart777 - I totally agree it's worth getting help.
I'm currently struggling with something like this. Most days I don't feel very manly - the opposite, in fact. The exception is when I have sex with my wife, I feel like I'm "supposed" to feel, if that makes any sense. Due to our circumstances she's not open to, you know, constant sex. I know my feelings of worth have to come from within, but it's not happening yet.
I thought my whole self worth was based on my ability to "give" sex to others