Sufferer Former kooky homeschooled kid, finally safe enough to get to grips with trauma

I came out 300x worse than I went in. I hear of people on here having positive experiences but that wasn’t mine at all.

The place I was in eventually was forced to close down because of what went on. I get absolutely hysterically terrified at the thought of it. Like vomit inducing levels of fear. It didn’t seem to matter if I fought or complied, either way ended me in the shit.
It sounds like yours was even worse than mine. I hate that it happened to you.