Former Police Officer With PTSD

[anthony]

Welcome to the forum officerx

 

[Terry]

Welcome X. Cop here too. I had a similar experience years ago fighting a suspect over my gun. Don't feel bad about the dispatcher getting the wrong info. In my incident over my gun the dispatcher (a lifelong friend) got the street name mixed up and sent the cars 4 miles the other way. Longest 5 minutes ever. Anyway, welcome. I usually around here a couple times a week.

 

[officerx]

Hi Terry,

I can tell you that just seeing that there are other cops on this forum, makes me feel better. I often feel like the only police officer who ever had problems. Of course I know that this is not true, but I personally do not know anyone else with PTSD.

X

 

[Terry]

If you know any cops, you know other people with PTSD.

 

[RNning]

Hi Officer X
I understand the triggers in movies, TV etc. I recently helped care for my brother who was diagnosed with cancer, that triggered memories of childhood sexual abuse, physical abuse in my family and took me back into the most painful time of all - finding my mom who had shot herself.

The feelings you have are "normal" considering your experiences, but do try to find a new job - happiness is fleeting and you should not sell yourself short!

 

[moki]

glad your wife is there for you...

 

[porkyrees]

Hang on to that wife mate and talk over all your problems the rest will fall into place.Porky Rees

 

[officerx]

Thanks for all the kind words. I am indeed a very lucky guy to have such a wonderful wife. Without her I probably would never have made it this far.

 

[Marlene]

Coming in late-welcome to the forum.

 

[9Lives]

hi there Officer X

I prefer not to use my real name either as some of my abusers/rapists are still out there. I wasn't a police officer but, I was a federal corrections officer, active duty military, & also worked for the military police as a civilian. I went through some very stressful times with those jobs which didn't help my PTSD. I think one of the scariest/saddest days was when a friend & coworker got shanked & died. Although I was scared for my life numerous occasions, luckily I never got <physically wounded> from performing my job. So, I feel for you & just wanted to stop by and say hi!

Take care, ~9Lives