Found Bright Light In Dark Situation

[Kunoichi]

For those that read my recent thread on the General PTSD area...

I have to say for one of the few times, I feel proud. True, I messed up boundaries, I messed up on trust but I still beat my stockholm in the head because even though I was terrified I was still WILLING to go against my abuser. To me, that is huge! It means, for me, that he can't control me (not that he could but the thinking was that he did). That...the voice that I hear..the rules that I learned..they CAN be beat. Besides my physical escape, this is probably one of the most significant things to happen in my journey in regards to him. I have a long way to go but I was able to actually see a positive in this, which is so hard.

So I feel proud. Thank you all for giving me a place to share a quiet victory.

 

[a3a2]

Good for you!!! Way to break the silence!

 

[midi]

Quiet victories are the best!

 

[evergreen]

That is great news. It shows real progress and you should be proud!

 

[Deleted member 541]

This also shows that you have strength that you didn't know that you had.....There may come a time, later down the road, that you WILL take the steps to make him accountable for his actions, and prosecute him.......

 

[Carolina]

I'm new so I haven't read your story, but congratulations. This is absolutely fantastic and I hope you keep this victory in mind for the journey onward.

This proves that you have the strength to do it. It's in you and it can be summoned even when you think you can't find it.

Also, there are no quiet victories. They're all flamboyant, bright and loud in their own way, even if it's just for yourself, just as they're all equally important. You should celebrate it accordingly!

Take care and good luck continuing on this path!