I have been reading over the forums here and had to join. I appreciate all the info shared, as I have felt so alone in this life after life. I have 2 very close sister friends that when they don't understand, ask questions. Genuine questions that draw us closer to real support. Unfortunately, my mother who has been there through all my stumbling psychs trying to figure me out has been stuck on a misdiagnosed bipolar treatment given twelve years ago when I was coming off drug abuse. She tries to be supportive, but when I isolate she believes its bipolar behavior and its hard to get her to understand my diagnosis of cptsd. I understand her feeling of guilt that somehow she's failed me as a parent to protect me and I try to reassure her that it's not her fault, but as a mother, I understand. Its hard, especially when I need reassuring myself but I treasure the relationship that we now have. I know now that there are people who really understand. Thank you all for your posts!