desiderata310
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Last night was especially rough for sleep.
I had a nightmare about my therapist. I remember in the dream feeling threatened but very distant. Actually, that would exactly describe how I would feel when things would get when my ex and I would start to fight. well... when he would start an attack. I would simply be defending. I knew better than to start something.
I could view it with a certain sort of amused but horrified distance. The worse things got the more unreal it felt to me.
When I woke however, it was to essentially a panic attack. My heart was racing, I was wide awake and could hear every sound every detail of everything. High alert and shaking.
It felt funny to wake up like that and feel just as disengaged from the danger in the dream as I would have from the danger as it was happening.
I had a nightmare about my therapist. I remember in the dream feeling threatened but very distant. Actually, that would exactly describe how I would feel when things would get when my ex and I would start to fight. well... when he would start an attack. I would simply be defending. I knew better than to start something.
I could view it with a certain sort of amused but horrified distance. The worse things got the more unreal it felt to me.
When I woke however, it was to essentially a panic attack. My heart was racing, I was wide awake and could hear every sound every detail of everything. High alert and shaking.
It felt funny to wake up like that and feel just as disengaged from the danger in the dream as I would have from the danger as it was happening.
