I have been working on my case with the VA for three years now and want to quit. It brings me back to emotions that I tried to bury with drugs and alcohol for years. I have been clean and sober now for 8 years and re married about three years ago. I thought all was good and seem to have trouble connecting to the family. Her father is a vietnam vet and pointed out some troubles that he noticed. I was with the Ranger regiment and am not supposed to talk about some of that stuff and not everything is accessable evidently by the VA. I have gotten some buddy statements from those whom were willing to help. I Got out prior to the 2nd Iraq and Afgahn stuff. I was in from late 91 through early 95. So in my mind I had nothing to be having serious issues with other than trying to blend back into society. I find my self isolated from everybody at times and have days when it is hard to make it to work. I feel emotionally dead and unable to connect to people other than fellow rangers. Now they say that I have not been diagnosed with PTSD. I am seeing a doctor at the VA for anxiety issues but he said it is a conflict of interests for him to help. WTF. Anybody have anny suggestions to who I should try and get this evaluation from? Should I go to a civilian doctor and try to get a referral?