Frustrated With T

[Justmehere]

:hug: @otakujome

 

[scout86]

Sorry you're having all these problems! It really sounds like it's more him than you. And, "interesting" is an interesting way to describe him. My T keeps telling me "I wish you could just think of these people as 'interesting'." when he talks about my biological family. This guy sounds like he might be THAT kind of interesting.

He says that I can fool myself into believing it's possible to forget like that, but that I can't fool him

THAT was an "interesting" thing for him to say. I have no idea how that would work. And, if you could "fool yourself" into believing you forget, there would have to be some sort of reason for doing it. I wonder what that might be? A question HE should be asking, at least of himself. (I just remembered that English isn't your first language and we might be "hearing" something slightly different that what you're trying to express. Your English is so good, it's easy to forget!)

Anyway, all you can do is the best you can do. That's enough, even if those around you don't always get it. LOTS of people blank out big blocks of time, like others have said. The fact that he doesn't get that worrys me.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I will just keep waiting for the day I finish high school. When I can leave this town, this country.

 

[sun seeker]

He says that I can fool myself into believing it's possible to forget like that, but that I can't fool him and that I need to be serious when talking.

Your therapist is wrong. I expect you already know that. I doubt very much that he actually believes what he is telling you. More likely that he is in severe denial. If he admitted that people often do forget trauma, he would have to face the severity of trauma in his patients, rather than blaming the patient for their symptoms. Therapists have been doing this since Freud recanted on his original statement that "hysterical" women were having memories of sexual abuse because he couldn't face the repercussions of admitting that the elite of Vienna were abusing their daughters.

So that's about the therapist. The more important issue is what are you going to do for you. Is there anyone else who might be able to help you? I know you've said there are not a lot of therapists available of any variety, and I believe you. There are three things I would hope a therapist would do for you: help you work through your trauma, talk to your parents and let them know you need changes in your environment (both home and school), and prescribe medications to help you with the physical symptoms, such as sleep. This therapist is obviously useless on the first two counts. Can you go to a regular doctor for the third? If at least you could sleep better and tone down the anxiety and depression a little, you might be able to think more clearly about what to do about the other problems.

 

[shimmerz]

This posting shows the value of a Trauma doctor (T-doc) versus a therapist. Miles apart. I am so sorry for your trials @otakujome . Yes long ago all I wanted to do was grow up and get the hell out of town too. In the meanwhile, keep safe and remember and honour who you are.