Full Of Anxiety Today

[FullOfExtremes]

As i am still new and currently diagnosed with anxiety and stress (awaiting diagnosis of c-ptsd) I wasn't sure where to post this. Here seemed better place than any.

I had a phone call off my manager today, updating me with things going on at the office.

He was asking when i'd be back, and letting me know that he is leaving the company in June.

I am adverse to change, so this news kinda set me back a bit. I was cooking dinner a while ago and opened the window to get some fresh air and happily sat down to dinner when i saw something out of the corner of my eye.

This resulted in a full body reaction and I nearly upended the table, contents and all. What set this off? well i look down and it was a petal off a nearby blossom tree. :eek:

I'm still trying to get my body to calm down, 20 mins later and my nerves have still not settled.

 

[TLight]

Sounds like PTSD.......stress. It can be awful.........

Count the ceiling tiles, get your best good book out, escape into a TV show. Anything to calm the distress and tolerate it.

I'm sorry.........it is truly awful. Hang in there.

 

[FullOfExtremes]

Thanks TLight,

I've always been jumpy, any sudden movement or sound near by can set me off (friends often comment, sometimes laugh when I jump because it's rarely anything life threatening) , haven't had a full physical reaction for a while, I do feel my heart rate leap often though.

Calming down slowly this afternoon, still fairly alert though.