willpower, that is probably the one and only thing holding me together.
since my breakdown a cpl of years ago, i have not had a drink, smoked or stepped foot into a casino.
not that i don't want to... but i know that if i start again, the beast will grab hold and i will lose everything.
do i want to go down that road? say F it, drown my thoughts... sometimes, when i am down and i feel it just isn't worth it to continue..
willpower keeps me going until i start climbing the hill.
