I think it’s a normal reaction given what my dad did.. but i don’t know. If I could take a pill on if this was part of anyone else’s childhood then I can put it into perspective. But I don’t know I’ve been too afraid to ask anyone. Were you raised like this? I don’t want to be intrusive so if you don’t want to answer then don’t I was just wondering.I don't think anyone on the forum can answer this for you, no matter how honest they are being. None of us were there, none of us know you irl. So, what you think of it and what a professional that knows you thinks your perception is due to matters way more. So taking everything you've experienced plus read here into consideration. What are your own thoughts?