Getting Started

[lisalovesthebeatles]

OK. I am not good at being vulnerable. I am also not good at keeping in touch with myself and my needs. I fixate on others, their pain and wanting to help them feel better. I am very attracted to needy selfish people. I have made some great strides recently. I'm finally on medicine that is working and I am making myself stay in my body. Not an easy task. I do not have health insurance right now so I am paying for medicine & psychologist out of pocket. I don't have the money to see my therapist and honestly I've been seeing her for 6 years. With some results, but I NEED to connect with people that are living this. It is something that people can not comprehend. That feeling of constant dread. Wondering who hates you and who is talking about you. Never feeling loved or loveable. Feeling broken and rotten at my very core. I would love to talk to people that have found coping skills that are working and giving them a peace of mind in dealing with the physical, emotional and spiritual chaos that is me right now.

 

[Shattered]

Welcome. I know you will find understanding here. Good job on getting started.

 

[Sandra]

Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[Anna]

Welcome to the forum :)

 

[OKRADLAK]

Hope you like it here!:)

 

[intothelight]

Hi Lisa,

Welcome to the PTSD Forum. It is difficult to be vulnerable and to reach out others. Trauma and the aftermath can erode trust in others and trust in ourselves.

You have come to a great site for information about was to cope, and ways to heal, PTSD symptoms. The support of other members is amazing and is hugely helpful as one works on recovery.

Take care.
Debbie

 

[anthony]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[CraftyCath]

Welcome to the forum lisalovesthebeatles!

I fixate on others, their pain and wanting to help them feel better. I am very attracted to needy selfish people.

I can relate to all you have said. I, too, have a need to help others and often the relationships end up being detrimental to me. I discovered recently that my inner child goes for this type of person. I am starting to see the difference and hopefully will make new, trustworthy friends soon. I don't know if you can relate to this, your story just sounded so familiar.

P.S. I live not far from Liverpool, so close to all things Beatles!