Goal of The Day-Challenging Your PTSD

[ms spock]

To really challenge my thinking continuously.

 

[EverOnly358]

What is my goal for the day? :cautious:

To get back on track with exercising. I'm going to go out and get any exercise I can today... even if it's just walking through grocery stores and discount department stores for 2 hours. Tomorrow I'm hoping to get to the gym or walk outside if the weather isn't too bad. :joyful:

 

[ms spock]

To do some laps at the pool.

 

[EverOnly358]

Okay, update... yesterday I ended up spending hours walking around while out and about and at Ikea and grocery shopping at two stores. I even felt it in my legs just a little bit, so it really was a lot of walking. So that's good, goal accomplished! :joyful:

Today I'm trying to relax, especially because I want to give my family a day off and a chance to recharge, and if I'm busy doing too much, inevitably everyone around me gets roped into helping me. ;) So, maybe I'll walk outside if it's not too cold, but no pressure. I'd like to exercise today and tomorrow, and if it works out great, but I'm not going to feel bad if it's delayed until Tuesday. Then on Tuesday I hope to really get back into the swing of things with plenty of exercise.

Also, I want to keep working on the little bits and pieces of unresolved/unfixed C7 stuff (which is my OCD need to have everything Clean, Clean, Clean, Clean, Clean, Clean, Clean; this is an issue because it interferes too much with my life but is also totally understandable in the context of PTSD, since having things clean it's such a huge contrast to the disgusting filthy home I grew up in and where so much abuse occurred, and therefore a clean house makes me feel safe...) which is actually going surprisingly well. :smug:

 

[ms spock]

To be mindful.

 

[EverOnly358]

Update... Sunday was a great day... and I did a good job letting everyone vege out (I can kinda be a drill sergeant about things... always making sure people are busy finishing things they need to do). :playful: Everyone was happy. I didn't fit in any exercise, the day just flew by. That's okay. I told myself that I wasn't going to feel pressured about it. It's not that I don't want to exercise, there just hasn't been any time.

Today... I was on my feet all day, at home, busy doing a bunch of things I normally wouldn't have time to do, but did today because there was no school since it was President's Day. We live in a three story townhouse, so I was up and down the stairs a lot. I didn't even think about going to the gym, a) because I was so busy, but really b) because it was snowing and snowing and snowing and the roads were terrible. Maybe tomorrow or the next day... we'll see how the weather is. Maybe yoga at home. I'm going to have to play it by ear. :smug:

I'm still working on the C7 stuff. So much is resolved, but these little random triggers are still popping up. Sometimes I can't figure out why something triggers me... I know there are still a lot of locked up memories, but Jeez, it's annoying to be freaked out by something and have absolutely no idea why. Oh well. Progress is still being made. :tup:

My other goals for today were to have a teddy bear tea party with my daughter, and to just relax and have fun and not worry about everything being perfect, as I would in the past... all the way to the point that I wouldn't actually do the tea party at all because I couldn't do it perfectly enough. :confused: Anyways... we had a lovely tea party and she was so excited and it wasn't perfect but it was wonderful. It was a really big deal... K had a really good day. :D

Another goal was to work on some decorating and craft projects I wanted to do. Again, in the past, I would stress out about things turning out well, or spending the time doing something just for me and I would spin around and around worrying, and I would end up doing nothing. :cautious: Not always, but sometimes. Too often. Anyways... I got a bunch of things done, and they weren't totally, completely, obsessively perfect, but they were great. So that was really good, too.

 

[ms spock]

Dendrite

You can listen to the whole of their album here. It won't scroll down to it but my favourite song is just below the last one you can see the text for.

I want to go and see them live again.

 

[ms spock]

My goal was to exercise and I did. I went boogie boarding.

 

[EverOnly358]

My goals for today were to putter around the house and update my self-care checklist. I actually wrote this long list of things to choose from while puttering, but I didn't get to all of them. I was frustrated with my husband because he was a little upset with me for not doing specific things on the list. He's just trying to help me not get too manic and to stay focused instead of scattered all over. But I was still a little mad at him. The good thing there was that I only thought for a few minutes that he must totally hate me for disagreeing with him... and then I reined that in and reminded myself that thinking he hates me for minor things is just PTSD-thinking, people pleaser/co-dependent thinking, and I didn't need to do that anymore. I could have my own opinions and that's okay. B could have his own feelings about my opinions and that was okay, too. I thought it was tremendously good progress. And I did update my self-care checklist. I'm doing really good at all that stuff this week (vitamins, food, water, exercise, sunlight, etc.). :joyful:

 

[ms spock]

I could have my own opinions and that's okay. B could have his own feelings about my opinions and that was okay, too. I thought it was tremendously good progress.

Indeed.

 

[Britt.f7]

I haven't wrote in my blog, or book, in ages. I am going to make it a goal to get something written. It is such a piece of me, why am I letting it go to waste?

 

[EverOnly358]

Indeed.

Thanks! :joyful:

I haven't wrote in my blog, or book, in ages. I am going to make it a goal to get something written. It is such a piece of me, why am I letting it go to waste?

I sometimes take breaks from writing in my personal journal or in my Trauma Diary, and then I have a hard time getting back into it. :meh: Writing ALWAYS helps me though. Hope you get a chance to write today.

My goals...

REST AND RELAX!

...not a goal, a demand!

Wish me luck. After all, my husband's nickname for me, when I'm feeling manic, is "Buzzy the Hummingbird." Today I'm trying not to run around too fast or too far. :confused:

Oh, and I need to eat lunch. It's already 3:11pm. Jeez. ;)