Goals

[trapped]

So I decided I should keep track of my goals for the summer... I have a few that come to mind right now, so in no particular order, here's the start of my list:

• Write at least 2 research grant proposals
• Write proposals for two books
• Research grad schools
• Work on grad school applications
• Start gardening
• Start up business to sell art/greeting cards/etc
• Make more new friends, work on social skills
• Get a service dog
• Find a new job working as a bartender, or...?

So that's it so far... I realize it's very broad, and I'll come back later and try to make more specific goals and figure out my steps on how to get there. Right now, it's taking things one day at a time. I find out today sometime if the funding will work out for me to go to Tahoe by July 3rd. That is the most important thing right now, is hoping that falls in to place. The cool thing is that a lot of this, I can still do from the program in Tahoe, I'll still have my computer, art supplies, etc and I will have a bit of free time every day, especially at the end of the program.

I have a manualized treatment plan for social skills, that I have from a course on psychotherapy theories that I took a while ago. I am going to try to find that today, read through it again, and see if I can modify some things to come up with my own to help me with things I struggle with. I seem to be able to meet someone new and start talking with them almost every time I go out, but I'm never the one to initiate that contact, and the whole time I'm scared shitless and just want to flee from that area and get away from people. I need to work on getting more comfortable with social contact and such. I think I will pull out that manual when I get home tonight, first I have to survive stopping by the store to pick up some cold meds and then going to my therapy appointment.