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[spursfan80]

Hi there!

I have finally been diagnosed with Severe clinical depression as a result of PTSD after over 10 years of suffering. My younger brother died in September 2000 aged 15 after fighting cancer so bravely for nearly two years. Since then my whole life has come to a halt and although I function each day by going to work I spend a lot of my time either in tears or unable to concentrate due to headaches brought on by my medication.

I have to go to work each day as I made a pact with myself that as my brother managed to go to school every day during his illness, unless he was just out of hospital (only once or twice), I certainly don't deserve to take time off.

Discovering my father was gay and began to make life very difficult, meant I had to move house two years ago. Since then I have lost all contact with the circle of friends I had and now feel very lonely, although I live with my mother (she knows nothing about how I feel - I don't want to hurt her by bringing up painful memories of my brother's death).

Having finally found a counsellor I can talk to and trust, I am feeling even more vunerable as she helps me work through everything I have been burying for the past 10 years. Finding this site looks to be the very place I need at the moment - it's good to know there are people out there who are also going through similar difficulties.

 

[blueangel371115]

Wecome to the forum.

 

[deer_in_headlights]

Sending you a very warm welcome, Spursfan80!

I hope you soon feel very much at home, here. There are so many wonderful, caring, compassionate, understanding and supportive people here; it is a very healing and wonderful place to be.

I love the people here, and I hope you soon feel the same!

Here we can take off the masks that we have to wear in "the real world", we can talk about our deepest traumas, fears and pain... and receive back understanding, love, gentle nurturing care or a rare loving whack, if needed ;).

This is a very healing place, and a wonderful adjunct to therapy: which is the most wonderful gift you can give yourself! I'm so glad you have a good and trusted counselor!

With warmest wishes for healing, peace, friendships and a renewed spirit,
Deer

 

[Tinyflame]

Hi spursfan!,
It sounds like you loved and love your brother very much and how lucky he was to have such a wonderful big brother.
He wouldn't want you to feel so sad now on his behalf as then he would not have accomplished what he intended and showed you, and he would want you to think of the good times and the present times.
I have a feeling too he's with you and will help you.

Am glad you wrote, may you find new peace and direction and help and joy.
xo

 

[Iam]

Welcome to the forum Spursfan. You're right, this is a great place not only to find information, but for much needed support.

 

[Vee Lagrome]

Welcome to the forum, spurs. I am sure you will find the support you are looking for here and i wish you the best in your healing process. :)

 

[intothelight]

Hi Spursfan,

Welcome to the forum. I hope you find information and the support here that will help you manage your PTSD and live life more fully.

Debbie

 

[suzie q]

Glad you found this forum and welcome!