Good sites to "unbrainwash" or "deprogram"one self?

[lostforgottensoul]

I just want to be loved...

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Sex makss me feel loved but then i have to punish myself for it for being "bad"

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I wasnt allowed to cry...

I wanted to but i wasnt allowed to...

My mom made me eat out of a dog bowl...

I hate myself!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

They made me hate myself...


I just want to belong some where...anywhere...

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I want to throw up

 

[lostforgottensoul]

My mom is a f*cked up pedophile piece of shit that put boiling hot water and bleach inside of me and now i have to cut inside of me because she made me hate myself and f*cking hate her

 

[lostforgottensoul]

But i wanted a mom...i wantes her to love me...i wanted her to want me...and she said the only thing she wanted me for was to give her good oral sex and to make sure i brought home $500 a day

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I hurt so bad inside!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Im sorry....i didnt mean to type so much :sorry:

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Stockholm syndrome is where a captee bonds with their captor.

I know. My therapist said i had that...

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Jeremiah Taylor

Alison Rose

Those were the two names i picked out when they thought i was preg. A baby that never got to be (if i was preg) because killed it.with.a.BBQ fork. They took away my abilty to ever have kids. I hate them for that!

Ive never told.anyone the names...

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I thought/typed myself sleepy, w/o sleeping meds or anxiety meds.

That was exhausting!

Im.sorry for typing so much :sorry: