Gorbe's Corner In Recovery

[MissMacD]

If you want to know more about me you can read about it in Gorbe's Corner which is in the Trauma Diaries forum.

I have started this forum to encourage myself and others to learn to live with PTSD which has become disabling at many points in my life. At the moment I am in a good place and feeling probably the most grounded I've felt in years and to celebrate I am going to make sure I keep taking care of myself. I have learned a lot after years of depression and long sessions stuck in the depths of my PTSD. I have decided to become my own best friend.

Things for me to work on:

1. Live life with less restrictions and unrealistic rules and goals and realize when I am being unrealistic with myself. I often make unrealistic goals - when I get to a place where I start taking care of myself (exercising and eating well) I end up giving myself reasons why I don't have to take care of myself anymore and I slowly slip back into an unhealthy place. To help myself reach this goal I am going to cook no matter what and if I find myself not wanting to cook I will simply buy healthy things that require less cooking.
2. Eat well everyday. If I stop drinking water and eating enough fruits, veggies and grains I notice a huge difference in how I feel.
3. Exercise at least 10 minutes everyday. I have dusted off my jogging shoes and punching bag and have started really enjoying jogging again.

 

[MissMacD]

I'd like to update this section because I feel that people that are going through what I went through need hope. I recently finished 6 months of intensive CBT therapy and I am piecing my life back together. I've dealt with a lot of my trauma and my therapy has taught me to be my own therapist when I am faced with flashbacks. I am equipped to know the signs of going into depression so that I can learn to stop them before I get too low.

It doesn't mean that I will get everything perfect the first time. Learning to be my own therapist is a challenging task.

I am slowly reducing my medication (Seroquel) and learning to deal with my anxiety/depression/PTSD symptoms as I wean off of it. I am aware that I may have to stay on something my entire life - I am prepared for that. I am taking baby steps so that I can succeed in my life and my trauma is no longer in charge of driving my life. Taking back the wheel is a very empowering thing.

To all of those who are suffering right now, it does get better. Reach out to the resources and your community and ask for help. When you are really ready to have your life back help will find you.