Had A Dream With My Therapist In It?

[Bmiiw]

I had a dream where I showed up to therapy and I walk in and my auntie and cousins seem to be in there having family therapy. But they all seem mad and it's not going well. They don't seem to notice me but I am mortified, they don't know I'm in therapy. I can't go and I can't stay. I leave the room, my T comes out and apologises and says he can't get them to leave.

He hands me a black labrador puppy to comfort myself.

Therapy continues in a huge and busy public food court. I'm mortified and feel very inhibited talking or expressing emotion because I'm in a huge and busy public food court. I try to do so in a reserved way. My T is oblivious to the ridiculousness of the situation. All the while I can't help thinking of the clock and how I am actually paying for this.

THEN my two teenage brothers show up and I am extra mortified, they don't know I'm in therapy. They are bored and annoyed because they have been left in town all day. They say Dad is on his way and I beg them to get him to be later, for them to leave, for them not to tell Dad. Dad doesn't know about my therapy. They too seem oblivious to the situation and don't seem to care or listen. My T doesn't seem to care either and is also oblivious to the situation.

This dream seems way too... I dunno, symbolic to not mean something. I can't get what that something is. Anyone got any ideas or had a similar dream?

 

[Uveje]

I am so sorry, dreams suck sometimes. I know for me I am always afraid that my mom will be able to convince people, ESPECIALLY my T that I am a horrible person. She did try it once with my pastors back home, who are like 2nd family to me. She told them if they really knew me, they would know I'm an A**hole. They told her they would never believe it, but it has stayed with me. People have suggested doing a session with my mom because of some issues we have, but I could never ever do it, not with my T. Thankfully my T does not want to do it. We both know my mom will never change and it would do no good. Although my T has told me to tell my mom that SHE (my T) has told me to do or not do something before so that she takes the blame instead of me.

So could it be that you are terrified of what your T would think if they met your family? I know trust is a huge factor in our therapeutic relationships.

 

[Wezef]

Sorry that was not meant to be anonymous

 

[Ifeh]

Sounds like you're feeling exposed.

 

[Bmiiw]

That might be the case. Whats the deal with the therapy in a public place? And him not 'getting it'? That is what confuses me most

 

[Bmiiw]

So could it be that you are terrified of what your T would think if they met your family? I know trust is a huge factor in our therapeutic relationships.

It might be that too!