http://www.cnn.com/2010/CRIME/12/20/florida.obscenity.arrest/index.html?hpt=T1
I read the above story about the arrest of Phillip Greaves, "author" of the horrible book, "The Pedophile's Guide to Love and Pleasure: A Child-Lover's Code of Conduct," and it caused a major flashback for me. (My PTSD is from a childhood sexual assault, and was re-triggered about a year ago by a pedophile trying to lure my young son.)
I've been taking Zoloft as well as talking with a therapist, and have made a lot of headway on getting this under control, but this story really threw me. The idea that there's a how-to manual for these monsters to improve their chances of victimizing children makes me feel absolutely sick inside. I read the story, had a horrible, vivid flashback of the assault, and then had such a terrible bout of dissociation afterward. I don't know how long I spent curled into a ball on the sofa, but I eventually realized that my 2-year-old was pulling on my arm, crying, "Mama! Mama!"
I'm really upset about the dissociation episode. It really bothers me that I essentially "checked out" and left my 2-year-old alone with an unresponsive statue of his mother. I've never done that before. I hope I would have snapped out of it if anything dangerous had happened - but what if I hadn't? :(
I read the above story about the arrest of Phillip Greaves, "author" of the horrible book, "The Pedophile's Guide to Love and Pleasure: A Child-Lover's Code of Conduct," and it caused a major flashback for me. (My PTSD is from a childhood sexual assault, and was re-triggered about a year ago by a pedophile trying to lure my young son.)
I've been taking Zoloft as well as talking with a therapist, and have made a lot of headway on getting this under control, but this story really threw me. The idea that there's a how-to manual for these monsters to improve their chances of victimizing children makes me feel absolutely sick inside. I read the story, had a horrible, vivid flashback of the assault, and then had such a terrible bout of dissociation afterward. I don't know how long I spent curled into a ball on the sofa, but I eventually realized that my 2-year-old was pulling on my arm, crying, "Mama! Mama!"
I'm really upset about the dissociation episode. It really bothers me that I essentially "checked out" and left my 2-year-old alone with an unresponsive statue of his mother. I've never done that before. I hope I would have snapped out of it if anything dangerous had happened - but what if I hadn't? :(
