I feel that the mental healt system has failed me bigtime. Allthough I have been in many therapies througout the years, there was none that was helpfull. They all where temporary band aids, leaving me more confused and insecure about myself after they came to an end. I followed therapy ,of and on, for about 20 years, and never recived proper treatment to learn how to cope with my symptoms. It was only three years ago, I recived a proper diagnosis. And even then there was no therapy program for me, except medication and two weekly talking appointments.
I live in the Netherlands, and even though there is many theoretical knowledge coming from my country, in regards to PTSD, there is not very much pratical knowledge or programs here, for people who suffer Complex Trauma.
Three years ago the first Trauma centre was opend. The waiting list to be admitted into their program was one year! There where many people looking for that kind of specialised help. After two years it was closed again, due to financial and organisation problems. Now the trauma departments of the largest psychiatric institutes, are all closed down too. If you suffer multiple trauma, then there is no trauma centre or trauma therapy you can follow anymore.
I have found that therapy only made me worse. Not because I am not treatable, but because the therapy´s I recieved are not helpfull when you suffer symptoms of PTSD.
For me after may years, I concude for myself that the biggste problem I face when I would follow some kind of therapy, is that PTSD or Complex Trauma is regarded as a mental problem/disease. Wich, for me, it is not.
The last sevenmoths I have been searchin all over my country to find help for my problems. I found that there is no help available,other than medication ( AD's, AP's,sleeping pills,and benzo's)
The mental healt industrie here in my country aknowledges the fact that there is no program/help for poeple who suffer Complex Trauma. They also aknowlegde that this group is the largest group of mental helpseekers in the country.
If you are lucky, and you ave a lot of cash, you may find a private therapist that is specialised in PTSD.But for people who dont have the money, this help is not available.
I am coming to the conclusion that the mental healt industry is a big scam, and I dont want to get involved with them any longer. The therapies I followed have made me more insecure and confused about myself, instead of the opposite. I regard it as some kind of trap,once you get in the system, it is very hard to get out of it again.
If therapy really worked, than why are there so many people who have to go trough therapy over and over again? I was told may times by different therapist that they where able to help me. I just had to trust them. Only to find out that after a while they couldnt help me, and made me believe I was untreatable.
No therapy I followed during those 20 years, ever focussed on the trauma's I suffer. Except for one short training programm I followed only a year ago. That training programm was very helpfull and provided me a " toolbox" I can fall back on when symptoms arise. It was short and very to the point. It was the only time in 20 years that a therapy was focussed on trauma experience. I still gain a lot from that training.
I am done with the mental healt system in my country.
( I probably will recieve another grammar warning about this post. Writing my text in word before I post it, leaves me with a wrong textformat that i cant get right. So, I am stuck in how to do it right, without recieving a grammar warning)