Hate Being Home

[Gs172003]

This happens to me, too. As soon as arrive home, my mind goes down. Even though I was in a good mood few...

This. This is how it is. Until I know I can escape to bed ( which I can't until dark)

 

[Chiqui]

This. This is how it is. Until I know I can escape to bed ( which I can't until dark)

Exactly. Its only in bed when I can relax. Sleeping .(Although I suffer from nightmares) but that is different thing...

 

[LukinTaHeal]

One problem is sometimes people with ptsd try too hard to make things normal. Don't ever forget your love for music! Music is so important!

Normal is coming home from work, then taking anti-depressants or having a bottle of wine to deal with the bad day at the office!

We were supposed to be free! We were supposed to sing and dance! Thrive at festivals! Live a life of peace and love!

Society is a very unhappy place here in the UK! Massive % of hard drug problems, massive dependency on big pharma for legal drug problems! Massive alcohol problems!

Part of the problem I have with trying to fix myself, is how shocked I am by the state of society and the world in general!

I don't want any part of that life!

My advice, fall in love with music again! Maybe score some dank homegrown from a buddy!

I've bought new bike lights for my mountain bike today. I'll be cycling up a railway track everyday for 20 miles, then getting stoned at ancient ruins in fresh woodlands, seeing the animals on dartmoor, then cycling back.

I don't take any medication other than organic Cannabis, hemp seed oil, supplements and minerals and various plant extracts. I'm starting to learn stuff about detoxing, which reduces depression!

I do wonder how many people with ptsd would be much better off having Sativa Cannabis, exercise and elite nutrition, instead of pharma drugs!!!

I tried taking some pharma drugs twice. One lot had me drooling in my bed like a paralytic zombie! Threw them away after 4 days! The other lot I took for about a week, then stood on a nail, then collapsed and threw up violently!

That was the end of that! I don't smoke Cannabis. I vapourize it! It's true medicine. Even Jesus used it to heal people with it! It's far more tried and tested than the disgusting pharma meds which are horrible alternatives!

The eyes are useless, if the mind is blind!

 

[leelee]

Being at home sometimes can really get on my nerves and make me stress for no reason. Other times I dont want to leave my house and if I have to I can not wait to get back home. It seems it depends on my state of mind. If I get involved in art, music, gaming or playing with my fur children it helps release some of the stress. I really dont get into TV or movies, my attention span is not that long and I get board. Also walking meditation helps alot, we all are different, some do well with setting meditation other like me walking. We are all on a journy and on our way home, so no one feels "at home" here, just a thought. Hope all is well.

 

[Changing4Best]

I love my home now, but....

I pray to God every day that I won't lose it. I used to be homeless for 3 years. I am so grateful to have a home. However, it was not always this way. There was a time when I moved here at first that things were not really going well for me and I felt lonely and at that time my home did not feel like the place I wanted to be.

I made an effort to make friends. I went places where people were and socialized and then I found that once I was happier in my life, felt loved, felt liked at least, my home felt friendlier too. And it felt more like home.