Hate complaining

[NewBeginnings]

i hate this roller coaster I am on and what really bothers me is that I know what I need to do and yet I can't do it.

How many times do I need to do the same stuff? I know I need to speak up but I get stuck. I have had some tough times but I have been working through it and I should be way over it by now.

At times like this my head is filled with ongoing thoughts of negative self talk. I thought I would put it out here and see if it helps.

I am so aware of what I need to do and yet I feel sick because I can't. I am stuck. I wonder if it will ever change. I believe in taking responsibility and yet I want to lie in bed all day and feel sorry for myself for no good reason.

 

[Changing4Best]

Rarely is there "no good reason" why a person lies around in bed all day. Usually there is a solid reason behind this, but one sometimes has to go to Therapy in order to get to the bottom of it. Are you in therapy? If not, you might want to look into it. If you are, please discuss this with your therapist.

 

[NewBeginnings]

Valid point but I am frustrated with myself right now because I think I should be in a better place.

Yes I am in therapy and have been seeing my t weekly for a few years. I tend to make good progress and then I hit a wall. I don't like it when this happens - today was rougher than other times. And the bad part is i "know" what I need to do but I can't bring myself to do it. So frustrating.

Thanks for listening