General Have A Rant Thread...

[NikkiNikki]

((hugs))

 

[willis williams]

Sorry about your ruff day and evening. The blokes with fire works I would go nuts. So good on your soldier I'm proud.

 

[Steph_F]

awww Sue...I'm so sorry your day is crap...craptasic days go one FOREVER and the best days always fly by...its just not fair at all. *pouting*

Hopefully everything will be ok. I'm so touched that in the middle of that sh*t, you love that man of yours so much to be able to find pride in his strength!! way to go! :) lucky bloke! haha!

No words can ever describe it when all you want to do is shut down and go away, I think I can safely assume that we have ALL been there!! Tomorrow is another day and I am hoping it will go better for you guys!

Keep up the good fight, never give up, BREATH!

*hugs*

 

[Ladyhope Somerset]

Hi Sue

have been thinking about you a lot lately. Sorry you're going through a sh*t bad time. You're a real pro I'd guess at keeping up that brave face but honey maybe an appointment with your GP for you is worth considering. It's bad enough our darling hubbies find it difficult asking for help but please don't fall into that trap yourself.​

You know you can shout, scream and bawl on here. Another place I go is out in the car with really loud music playing. We are lucky that we live close to the countryside with tractor lanes where I pull over and just let it all out and properly weep.​

Had a big pile of :poop: to sort out just last week. They got the dosage on the prescription wrong (I turned alien: they only doubled the dose of the tablet!) fortunately I noticed before making up the weekly wallets.​

A bit at a time honey. Sending love and strength. Come back soon, you know you've got friends here.​

Stella ( x )​

 

[Redheaded Stranger]

Very proud of your husband for keeping his cool and even though you are having a crappy day, for recognizing that he kept his cool.

Kudos to both.

 

[wife of]

Thanks for the kind words folks,Red and Steph,I'm both bawling and breathing right now...Just sitting here next to my darling who's just fell asleep . Earlier this afternoon I disturbed him from a micro sleep in which he must of been having a nghtmare/flashback and he woke up and looked around him,I tried to reassure in my usual calming manner but he freaked out...stuck in 1993 again in his head,didn't recognise me,wanted to know where "Sue" was,bolted into the garden,that bit was fortunate as we have two doors right next to each other,one to the garden and one out onto the street.Lit him a smoke and sat down next to him,started realing off dates of birthdays anniversarys service no,listed his tatts told him a pretty thourough account of our early years together even some f our more "intimate" events(He must know no one else would ever get that info out of me)showed him tons of pics with both me n him in of the kids growing up,had to tell him again of the deaths of our two fathers ,then showed him himself in the mirror,that freaked him a lot,won't have it that that is himself,sat glaring at me for quite a while and then came over quite fatigued and asked if there was a bed he could have a lie down on,had to show him to his own bedroom.Hoping this is just the accumulated stress of the last few days coming out,don't know wtf I'll do if he doesnt sleep the confusion off.......Not religious at all but just about ready to light a candle and get on my knees....

 

[Steph_F]

I wish I could hug you and let you cry on my shoulder and help you in some way. I can't imagine going through that, it sounds just heart-wrenching. I am so sorry. I love the way you push on and push through! You are a great example and role model to us carers, just make sure so are ok yourself, please.

((hugs))

 

[wife of]

Thanks Steph I'm doing ok though,got good people at our backs.Hubby woke up 40 min later completely fine,a bit down when I relayed events but since then has been a lot more relaxed for the rest of the day,I guess its just the way his brain had to be today in order to cope with the stresses of the present and the past.Trying to make a mental note to myself not to vent in such detail when scary things occur though,don't want to scare anybody on here......anyone else reading this please bear in mind that ptsd affects everyone in similar ways but with many variants of extremes in all the different symptoms so dont be thinking that this type of thing may be round the corner for you,hopefully it wont....we're in the middle of a meds change here as well so I'm hopeful that things may settle a little more soon......and just knowing your all here realy helps me.XX

 

[Redheaded Stranger]

Well, you sure don't need to filter your rants to us. That is kind of why we are here and it serves 3 purposes; 1) you get it off of your chest which is super important, 2) it lets us know what might be in store, and 3) as weird as this sounds, it makes me glad my Veteran isn't experiencing that.

I just wish we could help. I do know that having you all be so supportive and generous with your experiences helps me so I hope it is as helpful to you.

Steph is right though. You are such a pillar of strength and a great role model for me. Thanks for continuing to share your story with us.

I'm sending love and good vibes to you and your Veteran.

Red

 

[wife of]

Bit of a crumbling pillar at the moment though,I do tend to have a bull at the gate,suck it up nature but I do also know the importance of letting things out and letting them go,learnt many years ago that bottling things and not clearing the stress out of my head does not make for a strong sue.....dearest son was a right little git and didnt sleep more than 3 hrs a night until he was 4 or so,coupled with doing the super strong wife of/part time single parent/mopper upper of problems before they got to the hubbys door,,,ended in me having my own wee brush with a bit of a breakdown,thankfully it was minor,more a case of mental exhaustion but I will never forget how scary and uncertain those times were for me.\at that point in my life I made a concious decision that worry was a useless emotion and have learnt that whereever I have no control over something then I have to just roll with the punches and see what unfolds.This with the ptsd is different though...I'm trying not to worry but I have nowhere to focus the negetive energy that the pain of seeing what happens to my hunny invokes,have started using an imageary technique in which I envisage ptsd as a person(peter ) and give it/him a good talking to every now and then,must sound like i'm losing it but It realy helps me to clear the fear and gain some focus.......

 

[Ladyhope Somerset]

Hi Sue, that episode when your hunny was so disorientated must have been so scarey for you both, not even recognising himself in the mirror - damn that must have been hard to handle.

I like the idea of imagining ptsd as a person that you give a good talking to, releasing the negativity. I'll give that a try, it sounds really useful. Thanks for that.

Hope you don't mind me asking, but if you have time for a hobby, when do you fit it in and what do you enjoy?

Looking out for you and sending love & hugs.

 

[Ladyhope Somerset]

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