Have any of you done long term EMDR, like years of it? I've done years of it and I am not making improvements. My therapist and I agree on this. Some of the big trauma events, like rapes and such are desensitized and don't really hurt like they used to, but the core beliefs are still here. So are the nightmares. (I now wonder if the residue is actually some medical issue instead. Otherwise, Complex PTSD is the shit of shit.) I've been doing EMDR so long I question if it's even helping me. If I look at any basic amount of time, like say a month, for every hour in EMDR, there are days and days when I am suicidal, debilitated by depression and such, so like for every hour in session, it's 4-5 days (if not more) out of session that are horrible, like truly horrible. This pattern has repeated every week for over three years. I've been suicidal now for two months straight, and haven't felt this low since before I started EMDR, because the traumas aren't painful, but there's still core beliefs that won't budge. I just want to know if anyone else who has Complex(or Combat) has done long-term EMDR, if you ever got to a point where you thought it was stupid and useless, and if you question its effectiveness. (Super frustrated over here, and with the headaches and the rest of it, I'm ready to call it quits.) Any long-term EMDR peeps, please tell me your experience.