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Have You Ever Wanted To Runaway From Your Own Mind?

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Not really to take a break, but rather to just shut it off completely. I have (what I call) a racing min...

Agreed, that is the correct description: to be able to just shut it off. Sometimes my brain feels like a nuclear power plant, when there is not enough cool water to cool off the nuclear matter and then a meltdown is imminent.
Go through days with brilliant light streaks in my brain, when I notice improvements I am as happy as a little kid: only to be thrown back into darkness, damp cold hallways of memories with pain that strangles my emotions.

Where to go from there?
 
I love to read Memoirs for this reason. I get to BE IN SOMEONE ELSE'S MIND that way when I read them!

Also, reading pretty well shuts my mind off and I learn all sorts of interesting things too!
 
I feel that way 60% of the time. Mainly due to mental exhaustion. Today I just felt emotionally numb. It is a weird experience.
 
Yesterday I did. I started antibiotic treatment for a sinus infection and I started feeling "crazy" is all I could describe it as. I think it is what we in the Lyme Disease Community have called "Die-off" which is all about the toxins in your body that are created when the nasty little critters inside you that are causing DIS-EASE start to die off. That is all I can figure. All I know is that my mind felt really nutz, both physically, like slightly dizzy, and mentally, like "I gotta get out of here" but there was NOWHERE to go! I am stuck home, nursing myself back to health, and all I have to keep me company is a guinea pig (who is not happy, because we ran out of cucumbers) and myself and this computer and the 4 walls.

I have my phone, but most folks are out either working or busy or whatever. I spent some time writing to politicians, begging them to be nice to me in terms of the future National Budget. I got one nice reply that was encouraging actually, and a surprise! That is one out of 3. The others just sent me form letters saying that they had received my letters and would respond, keeping in mind the volume of letters they get, and so on.

At least, even though I was feeling crazy, I could do something sane.
 
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