Having trouble

[SunDog]

Kind of on my last nerve. After trying to face my demons and thinking about it too much I feel completely empty. I keep snapping at the dumbest things. I've broken two teeth - to the point where there is not much left to salvage - just from gritting my teeth in anxiety. I've lost my motivation to do things and feel almost like I am watching my life from the outside. I don't know how else to describe it. I go from being really down and numb to angry and teary. I feel like a complete failure. Where do I even go from here? I feel like I've lost all semblance of control over my life. I really want to have some control back.

Every time I am about to walk out of the door this overwhelming feeling of dread makes me freeze. I just feel like I'm losing myself...

 

[Deleted member 47388]

Hi SunDog,

Sorry you are feeling this way, it sounds way too familiar.
I tried or actually I had no choice than try mindfulness. It means that you actually look at your life as any situation from distance, from inside or outside. You can try having conversations with yourself about things you observe or experience and reason about it. Become curious about anything and discover new thoughts and sides of yourself and your surrounding. It will also keep your mind busy with else than anxiety or other unpleasant emotions. Keep practicing, it takes time for the brain and your thoughts to see other things than you do now. There's plenty of advice available on internet.

Look for dharma talks at dharmaseed org to see if your find any of interest.
If nothing else at least you can fall asleep to it.

Sincerely
/backslide

 

[SunDog]

I will try that. Thank you @backslide
I definitely need to try something new. I feel stuck in my old mindset and I keep having to remind myself time has passed. I will definitely give it a go.

 

[Deleted member 47388]

I will try that. Thank you @backslide
I definitely need to try something new. I feel...

Hopefully it helps.
Enjoy :inlove: