Is there such a thing as having too much trauma?

[captain jigglypuff]

I’m often afraid to talk about the trauma I have because I’m afraid that the person won’t like hearing about it and it’s too much for them and they abandon me instead of helping me get through it and being there to comfort me when I have a flashback and tell me that everything will be okay. Several of the traumatic memories I have are truly upsetting to hear. I often say it’s a miracle that I never developed a taste for alcohol considering how easily accessed it was in my house growing up. It would have been so easy for me to open the cabinet and open one of the liquor bottles and just drinking out of it when no one else was around just to numb the pain.