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Hello all I am from Ireland and here is a brief description.
I grew up in Belfast, Ireland in an alcoholic home. My mother spent most of her life in bed drunk and I spent most of my childhood in emotional pain, humiliated, feeling neglected. My father was also a socially acceptable alcoholic who I was afraid of and could not talk too.
Belfast was a violent city during the troubles with murders and bombings happening most nights of the week so I lived in fear outside the home. Also, I was in a city center bar one night when I was 16. Gunmen came in and shot the door man in the head and stomach and also shot people outside.
I left home when I was 21. I suffered from depression and anxiety and drank very heavily. I am now sober for over 6 years and feel good most of the time. I run ,meditate and play music all of which helps.
I have always had violent images flash into my mind like hurting people, hurting children even thoughts of sexual abuse. The thoughts come from no where and come out of the blue and are frightening and disturbing and I have never told anyone about these thoughts before.
I never thought about PTSD and don't want to diagnose myself.
I grew up in Belfast, Ireland in an alcoholic home. My mother spent most of her life in bed drunk and I spent most of my childhood in emotional pain, humiliated, feeling neglected. My father was also a socially acceptable alcoholic who I was afraid of and could not talk too.
Belfast was a violent city during the troubles with murders and bombings happening most nights of the week so I lived in fear outside the home. Also, I was in a city center bar one night when I was 16. Gunmen came in and shot the door man in the head and stomach and also shot people outside.
I left home when I was 21. I suffered from depression and anxiety and drank very heavily. I am now sober for over 6 years and feel good most of the time. I run ,meditate and play music all of which helps.
I have always had violent images flash into my mind like hurting people, hurting children even thoughts of sexual abuse. The thoughts come from no where and come out of the blue and are frightening and disturbing and I have never told anyone about these thoughts before.
I never thought about PTSD and don't want to diagnose myself.
