Elisacullen21
Silver Member
So, I have to introduce my self, right? I don´t like very much to talk about me, but I can try.
My name is Elisabete, I'm 21 years old and I´m from Azores, in Portugal. My english is not ok, but I will try to comunicate wilth everyone.
I joined at this forum, because I suspect that maybe I have PTSD. But I don´t have a clinic diagnosis, yet. When I was ten years old I was raped by a neighbor that his still living next door (imagine the terror!). I have symptoms since 2002. I have my first flashback when I has 11 (for me the flashbacks is the worst symptoms of PTSD). I can´t see blood because it symbolically related to the traumatic experience and whenever I see this I feel the same sensations, the same paralising fear of the experience. Is horrible for me. And I don´t talk to almost nobody about this feelings because I feel that I´m going crazy. I can´t have a afective relationship because the Trauma puts in the middle. I lost my teenage years for this Trauma and it insists on staying in the center of my life! :( Kisses for everyone.
My name is Elisabete, I'm 21 years old and I´m from Azores, in Portugal. My english is not ok, but I will try to comunicate wilth everyone.
I joined at this forum, because I suspect that maybe I have PTSD. But I don´t have a clinic diagnosis, yet. When I was ten years old I was raped by a neighbor that his still living next door (imagine the terror!). I have symptoms since 2002. I have my first flashback when I has 11 (for me the flashbacks is the worst symptoms of PTSD). I can´t see blood because it symbolically related to the traumatic experience and whenever I see this I feel the same sensations, the same paralising fear of the experience. Is horrible for me. And I don´t talk to almost nobody about this feelings because I feel that I´m going crazy. I can´t have a afective relationship because the Trauma puts in the middle. I lost my teenage years for this Trauma and it insists on staying in the center of my life! :( Kisses for everyone.
